http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJfFZqTlWrQ

Pink - So What?

Love it <333 My Fave New Song. Watch it or die :)

Still working on 'First Year'

Today, I started to write my first composition in my music book. See what've I done today.



Yesterday, you heard the first few seconds of the song, today you see to see more it.

Short Preview of 'Firstday of School'

This is a preview of the song, I am currently writing. So yeahh. Don't hate it, when it's finished it will be better :)

It

Dreams & It - Are two poems I forgot to Publish, soz.

Dreams

XOXO

EVELYN CLARK, ARE YOU READING THIS. COMMENT IF YOU ARE. LOVE YOU :)

Social Anxiety

Ahh mother...you are infuriating but only because you have no idea of what I've been doing. You claim that I am doing nothing but sitting on my arse all day - well, I object! I have been working on a plan to conquer my Social Anxiety (!) unbekwonst to you.

It goes like this...

Stages:
1) Part 1 – Social Anxiety
2) Part 2 – ‘the Plan’ My Acting Career
3) Part 2A – Job Searching
4) Part 3 – Operation: NM

Part 1 – Society Anxiety

Goal: to overcome my social anxiety and defeat the monster that rages inside me.

Stages:
1) Get comfortable in Public
2) Do stuff in Public
3) Normal Everyday Activities
4) Embarrassing Yourself
5) The Bucket List
6) Test Run

Stage 1 – Get comfortable in Public
Go out each day, put a whole list of places in a box and pull one out at random and then you have to go to the place that you pulled out, no exceptions. You don’t have to do anything, just walk around or sit on benches. Do a bit of shopping, whatever takes you fancy. Do this every day for ........
After you’ve finished this stage make sure that you can walk in anywhere and not feel embarrassed, in the toilets, cinema, street, park, shopping mall, where ever.

Stage 2 – Do Stuff in Public
By now you should be comfortable walking around in public and sitting down. So now, where ever you are start doing little stuff. Like taking your phone out of your bag and checking it, or applying lip balm. Or unwrapping gum and putting the piece in your mouth. Little stuff like that, wearing sunglasses, a hat. Go on a Photography Walk.

Stage 3 – Normal Everyday Activities
It’s time to take it to the next level, at this stage you should be more or less comfortable going out in public so start doing everyday activities that people do. Such as buying stuff, going to the toilet during a movie, going to the toilet in a restaurant, ordering in a restaurant, buying alcohol and cigarettes, catching the bus or train, getting makeovers, facials, pedi & manicures, eyebrows, etc. Go on a long bike ride, start powerwalking each morning and afternoon. Go jogging at night. Order at McDonalds. Buy Phone Credit and call up people, etc.

Stage 4 – Embarrassing Yourself
By now, you should be thinking ‘stuff everyone else’s opinion but my own’. So, go out and embarrass yourself who cares that they think? You don’t!

Stage 5 – The Bucket List
Do everything on your Bucket List, that when you created you didn’t think that you’d be able to do anything on it because of your Social Anxiety.

Stage 6 – The Test Run
Now you should be pretty confident in public now, so go give your new confidence a test run! Go into a shopping mall and scream, “Hello Everyone!” or walk into McDonalds and ask, “Which fast food place would they recommend”. Stupid stuff like that you know. Listen to music travelling home on the train or bus, etc.



P.S. Just contact me if you want to help me with this!!! :)

What Happened?

Just realized, I've gone from alright poems to &^&%&*((!! (rubbishy) poems in a matter of months.... what happened? :(

Oh and I seem to be different like I dunno hard to describe. More open? More opinated? LOL. More badass?? More talkative.... probably...! More withdrawn into myself, although I've alway been like that. I have no idea -_- I'm just not the same person that graduated from school in 2010. End of Story.

OMG.

OMG.
OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG <3

I would just like to say that I have just thought of one of the most BRILLAINT ideas ever. If I could sing/write/compose I could put all of these rubbishy poems (or whatever they are) into like a song or an album, or something like that.

Geez, I only wish I knew some one that played guitar... and wrote songs... ;)

The Scorpio and the Aquarian

AN: I was intending to make this into a song, but really I need a super good inspiration to write a song and I can't be bothered, so whatever. If anyone wants to compose a song with me? Just ask :)

I stare at the space where you were standing but by now your long gone.

You always make things tedious and look into things way too much.

When I walk into a room, the atmosphere is so intense it has me shaking in my shoes, I avoid your gaze and stare down at the ground as you flutter 'round like a cyclone - your in one of your funks that I hate and there is nothing I can do.

You go off at me for the most random things, that I know nothing about.

I don't understand you, I know what you will say, "Girl don't do this and girl don't do that" all the while I just glare at you then storm off in a huff.

Dear Darling, we are incompatible and this is just never gonna work.

AN: I was thinking of calling this Dear Darling or something like that.

I formally introduce you to Ziggy ♥

Meet Ziggy Forest Houston ♥ Tortishell, currently 6 turning 7 this September :)
Adopted from the RSPCA in 2006, cost around $100.
Before that however, she resided in Forest Lake, Brisbane.
Her previous owner moved away when she was born taking her mother with them and leaving all of the little kitty sisters on their own.
When the next people moved into the house, the kittens were all discouvered underneath the house.

Ziggy had an adoptive sister, Casey but she died in year 10 on the last day of the holidays in term 3 :( I miss her.

Queen of Mean amoung other things.

Yes, that is my mum and we do not get along. Our personalites clash and we don't well together as it is know that Scorpios (me) and Aquarias's (mum) do not get along at all. It's kind of hard to explain, but lets just say that I don't talk to her about stuff so there may be a lot of confusion and when she tells me what to do, I get pissed because its my life and I'm in charge, another trait of being a Scoprio - you never reveil your true feelings, you keep many secrets and you like being in control.



This combination usually becomes unpleasant after a short time. Fuelled by Scorpio's instability and Aquarius's imagination, sex is quite unusual. But Aquarius will be turned off by Scorpio's dominant and jealous passions, and Scorpio is disturbed by Aquarius's changeable moods. Aquarius likes to participate in public interaction and Scorpio can't bend the Aquarius to their will, because of Aquarius' love of freedom. The Aquarius is sociable and the Scorpio, reserved.These two are best going their separate ways.
Aquarius Compatibility Rating: 3/10

http://www.aquarius-sign.com/aquarius-compatibility.html

When a Scorpio child is born to an Aquarius parent, the combination of the two mingles different needs and different philosophies. Though day-to-day conversation may be a bit strained, they undoubtedly love one another as a family. Scorpio has an emotional intensity with which they face life.

Aquarius has an unusual, idealistic world view. If child and parent can give each other some leeway, they will learn to appreciate the other's perspective. As Scorpio may be more introverted and prefer to be alone with their family, Aquarius enjoys a night out with friends or a huge dinner party. Both Scorpio and Aquarius have a tendency to be uncompliant and opinionated. Scorpio is probing, delves deeply into the hidden meaning of things. Meanwhile, Aquarius is modern and does not enjoy detail.

Scorpio will find Aquarius exciting, yet may not understand this revolutionary's mind. Aquarius will need to accommodate to the possessiveness or the amount of attention the Scorpio child requires. This family duo may appear to have few common interests, but these two are both possessed of strong willpower. When they set this force to a common goal, they are assured of its success.

The best aspect of the Scorpio-Aquarius family relationship is the capacity for accomplishment in their synergy. Both Signs have very powerful personalities, so neither will openly dominate the other. Once they can work out their differences, come together and agree on their individual roles within the family, the fruits of this relationship can be sweet.

http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=aquarius

^^ GREAT WEBSITE. LOVE IT <333

Let's do my dad now ♥

When a Scorpio child is born to a Capricorn parent, they can help each other to mature as individuals and to learn the value of a loving and supportive family relationship. Shyness, reservations, and distrust of others may keep these two from establishing other relationships outside of the family.

This family relationship is very comfortable; so comfortable in fact that it may hamper the development of other personal relationships for both child and parent. Scorpio can learn to cool their heated emotions from Capricorn's proficient and stable behavior. However, this sentiment may also backfire for Scorpio who may become irritated at Capricorn's apparent lack of emotional depth. Capricorn can learn to probe more deeply within themselves and all aspects of life.

Capricorn's strong guiding hand and Scorpio's deep-feeling roots can be too much of a good thing. However, once they have learned to trust, share, and care for another person outside the family, their relationship will be more secure and stronger than ever before. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task.

The best aspect of the Scorpio-Capricorn family relationship is their determination to share ideas and their strong devotion to one another. Theirs is an excellent family relationship, and they can strive to teach one another about different ways of perception, as long as both parties go out to explore the world.

http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=capricorn

Draw a Heart on Your Wrist Day

On April 25th 2011, at 12am and onwards there will be a day dedicated to people who are battling depression and suicide and to advocate a lifestyle of unconditional love. On this day, draw a heart on your wrist, to symbolize that you are wearing your heart on your sleeve. ask someone how they’re doing. tell someone you love them. nobody should have to feel so bad about themselves that they take their own life. Take this challenge. Save someone’s life.











Source: http://www.yoga.com/ydc/enlighten/enlighten_document.asp?ID=505§ion=6&cat=132

The Smirking Horror

So yeah, I have one younger brother called Hamish, otherwise referred to as the 'Smirking Horror' as I like to call him.

A few years ago, in 2008 I think. Someone said that when I turn 18 and finish school my brother and I would become bestest friends well, I didn't think that would happen and I still don't think it will. I've turned 18 and finished school and my life is still hell as it was 2 years ago -_-

I wanted to move out then and I still do want to move out, I mean just to get away from him. He makes my life a living hell, I was intending to post a picture of him but you know he might get a bit pissed without his consent so I settled upon googling his name and this is what I discouvered.



Apparently, Hamish is either a dog or....



A Pair of Boots, they are the two most common pics that kept on coming up. A dog and a few pairs of shoes.

A few googles later: The awkward moment when Hamish Houston says "I feel you" in a comment.

http://www.likepage.co/162480/The_awkward_moment_when_Hamish/

And like always just I just couldn't resist doing a bit of editing, if anything the picture looks better than it was in it's orignal state.

Stop thinking about writing songs, and start writing songs. You really want to be a famous star, don’t you? You daydream about being on stage and hearing the roar of the crowd. Only trouble is, gee whiz, you’re dreaming your life away. If you want to write a really good song, you’re going to have to work for it. Start today. Commit to writing a certain number of songs per week, the way successful authors commit to writing a thousand words a day.

^^ that is what I do, I'm all dream not action and I wanna go into action I'm just scared to :X

Heart.Heart.Heart.

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Just Something to Think About...

I believe in chasing down you dreams and shooting for the stars because you never know when it's gonna come to an end. You might die in a tragic car accident, or in a freak plane crash.You might develop cancer and not know for many year until it's too late or you could just not wake up one morning which many people take for granted that they would wake up.

But hopefully you'll live to a ripe old age of 80+ with successfully achieving your dreams, I'd prefer to live a short and happy life than live a long dull and boring one.

My dream is to become an actor or at least work in the film industry. I'd love to be a performing artist travelling, acting, dancing and singing my way around the world.

So like you know, enough is enough. I'm Zoe, I'm 18, I suffer from Social Anxiety and I want to be an actor, and I can't be fucked if you don't like me because I've had enough of worrying what other people think of me.

I would LOVE to compose/write a song with someone, but as long as that person could sing because I can't and yes, I do have a person in mind as I write this but I'm to shy to ask but Nella Vita – chi non risica, non rosica. So I'm gonna ask her eventually :) HINT: This person would love music to be their forte and they can play the guitar, also I would love to be friends with her and she may just be reading this.



Spencer Bell — poet, musician, artist — passed away in December of 2006 from adrenal cancer and if I must say also the coolest guy around. I love his poems! Goshh.

LOL

I wanted to work with the dead and be a private investigator :) SO.TRUE.

The Scorpio

Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.

In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.

They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.

They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal.
Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.

Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.

Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.". Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".
Possible Health Concerns...
Scorpio governs the pelvis and reproductive and urinary systems and its subjects are said to be prone to ailments of the liver and kidneys, stones and gravel in the bladder or genitals, and other genital ills such as priapism. Abscesses, boils, carbuncles, fistulas, piles, ruptures and ulcers may also affect the Scorpions.



horoscopes

LIKES
Truth
Hidden Causes
Being involved
Work That is Meaningful
Being Persuasive

DISLIKES
Being Given Only Surface data
Taken Advantage of
Demeaning Jobs
Shallow Relationships
Flattery and Flattering

Ummmmmmmmmmmm...

Well, people said when i turned 18 and left school my brothe and i would become bestest friends, well i am 18 now and have left school and not much has changed. my brother is still that same person he was 2 years ago bullying, tormenting me, making me cry, getting me into trouble, etc, etc. Two years I wanted to move out to get away from him and now i still do want to move out to get away from him. He is the 'Smirking Horror' of all Evils that may or may not exist in this world.

I have zero respect for people like that and i am not making this shit up. it's all true, i have a book where I write down stuff like this. it's not nice to treat people the way he does and btw this is not just sibling rivilary :/

NOT HAPPY JAN.

What the bloody fuck?

Explain this to me..

When I was 16, my brothers age, there was no way in HELL I'd be able to watch a R rated movie.

But now mum is letting him! I'm just like WTF.
He just freaking gets away with everything! :(

It is so unfair....

Robsten VS. the World

Everywhere they go,
the pictures always show,
where they've been or who've they seen.

They can never escape to peace and quiet,
coz' there will always be someone hidin' nearby.

I'm Here, Right Now.

AN: Sorry! I haven't posted in awhile. I forgot, oopsie :| *Cheesy Grin* Don't h8te me my non existant readers, haha :/

I'm Here, Right Now

Whoa, watch out!
I'm coming to get you,
I'm gonna rock out,
rock the world like never before.

I'm here, right now.
Just a few miles from you,
so you better be prepared for when I come to town :)

Zo's Wishlist 2011 #1

 An Ipod (since the MP3 has long since died) with a dock (so I can play the songs in my room incase the earphones break, which they do about once every 2 months)
 A whole years supply of earphones (since they have an odd tendency to break really easily when I use them, I am REALLY careful with them. They just do not like me )
 A lap top (Yet again I request this, this particular item has been on here for 2 years now)
 Lots of Toblerone Bars (I LOVE them) and Chuppa Chups (Yum Yum)
 Hair Curler (Another thing that been here for many years, it is awkward, difficult and annoying curling your hair with a straightner, the effect does look as good and it just plainly sucks, end of story)
 A Large Sound System with MASSIVE speakers (*grins* I have ALWAYS wanted one of these, they are the coolest things ever even though they maybe so big, they would be so worth it)
 A Black BMW Mini Cooper

Home is Where the Heart Is

Nobody cares if I go,
They wouldn’t miss me,
They are all so perfect for each other,
While I’m just the messed up one.

I don’t fit into their family,
And I shouldn’t even be here,
Home is where the heart is,
And my heart is not here.

United in Love

"What If"

What if we were friends more than lovers,
what if we didn't know who eachother was,
Somewhere in the future, way ahead of time,
there is a place where we will make love.

What if we are just carving our paths towards the future,
Never stopping till we give up,
hoping to lay our eyes on eachother until we find one true love.

What if we were destined to be together,
Not knowing what to do,
Destined to be together, forver and happily united in love.