Thursday, August 25, 2011
A Blog that I Can Seriously Relate To at this Precise and Present Moment
http://www.successful-blog.com/1/the-top-10-ways-to-start-living-your-life/
Thursday, July 28, 2011
SHUT UP.
Why the hell can't you just shut up?
Let me do what I want, and get on with my life.
I can't do anything when your always looking over my shoulder, watching my every move, telling me what to do.
You say you'll support in whatever I want to do, well you are a hypocrite as well as a liar.
You say every where in Brisbane is easy to get to, well there you again, LYING again.
Do you only pull out that line when it suites you, is it? HEY!
JUST SHUT THE DAMN FUCK UP!
Let me do what I want, and get on with my life.
I can't do anything when your always looking over my shoulder, watching my every move, telling me what to do.
You say you'll support in whatever I want to do, well you are a hypocrite as well as a liar.
You say every where in Brisbane is easy to get to, well there you again, LYING again.
Do you only pull out that line when it suites you, is it? HEY!
JUST SHUT THE DAMN FUCK UP!
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
How dare he! I mean how fucking dare he!! He is always like this, arrogant, selfish and thinks that he is right all the time. It is an understatment to say that I am furious right now, it's not about which computer I want to use, its about that I turned the laptop and the internet on, then I went outside while it started up when I came back the laptop had disappered. He had taken it into the kicthen, he didn't ask if I was using it nor nothing he just took it, isn't it obvious that someone was using it??? I mean it was open, is he that dumb to even realize that?!?! Arrogant bloody dickhead.
I will do anything! BLOODY ANYTHING!! to get away from him even if it means facing my social anxiety head on and handing out resumes, anything to get away from him. No Joke.
I will do anything! BLOODY ANYTHING!! to get away from him even if it means facing my social anxiety head on and handing out resumes, anything to get away from him. No Joke.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Who the hell does she think she is!? Trying to control my life... AGAIN! She's such a hyprocrite saying and I quote, "You are in charge of your own life now". Well, what the hell is that!?!????!!!
"Chemistry? I don't think soooo".
Shutup. If I wanna do it I will do it and I will not go done without a damn fight.
"Chemistry? I don't think soooo".
Shutup. If I wanna do it I will do it and I will not go done without a damn fight.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
How?
Nobody understands me.
They don’t understand about my Social Anxiety.
“She’s so quiet” “She’s so shy” “You need to louder!” “No one is gonna bite you”
I’ve tried explaining it to mother before, but she just does not get it. Says that I will overcome it.
How is that gonna happen? May I ask?
When I’ve had this disorder right from the start?
-_-
FUCKING.HOW?
They don’t understand about my Social Anxiety.
“She’s so quiet” “She’s so shy” “You need to louder!” “No one is gonna bite you”
I’ve tried explaining it to mother before, but she just does not get it. Says that I will overcome it.
How is that gonna happen? May I ask?
When I’ve had this disorder right from the start?
-_-
FUCKING.HOW?
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Still working on 'First Year'
Today, I started to write my first composition in my music book. See what've I done today.
Yesterday, you heard the first few seconds of the song, today you see to see more it.
Yesterday, you heard the first few seconds of the song, today you see to see more it.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Short Preview of 'Firstday of School'
This is a preview of the song, I am currently writing. So yeahh. Don't hate it, when it's finished it will be better :)
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Social Anxiety
Ahh mother...you are infuriating but only because you have no idea of what I've been doing. You claim that I am doing nothing but sitting on my arse all day - well, I object! I have been working on a plan to conquer my Social Anxiety (!) unbekwonst to you.
It goes like this...
Stages:
1) Part 1 – Social Anxiety
2) Part 2 – ‘the Plan’ My Acting Career
3) Part 2A – Job Searching
4) Part 3 – Operation: NM
Part 1 – Society Anxiety
Goal: to overcome my social anxiety and defeat the monster that rages inside me.
Stages:
1) Get comfortable in Public
2) Do stuff in Public
3) Normal Everyday Activities
4) Embarrassing Yourself
5) The Bucket List
6) Test Run
Stage 1 – Get comfortable in Public
Go out each day, put a whole list of places in a box and pull one out at random and then you have to go to the place that you pulled out, no exceptions. You don’t have to do anything, just walk around or sit on benches. Do a bit of shopping, whatever takes you fancy. Do this every day for ........
After you’ve finished this stage make sure that you can walk in anywhere and not feel embarrassed, in the toilets, cinema, street, park, shopping mall, where ever.
Stage 2 – Do Stuff in Public
By now you should be comfortable walking around in public and sitting down. So now, where ever you are start doing little stuff. Like taking your phone out of your bag and checking it, or applying lip balm. Or unwrapping gum and putting the piece in your mouth. Little stuff like that, wearing sunglasses, a hat. Go on a Photography Walk.
Stage 3 – Normal Everyday Activities
It’s time to take it to the next level, at this stage you should be more or less comfortable going out in public so start doing everyday activities that people do. Such as buying stuff, going to the toilet during a movie, going to the toilet in a restaurant, ordering in a restaurant, buying alcohol and cigarettes, catching the bus or train, getting makeovers, facials, pedi & manicures, eyebrows, etc. Go on a long bike ride, start powerwalking each morning and afternoon. Go jogging at night. Order at McDonalds. Buy Phone Credit and call up people, etc.
Stage 4 – Embarrassing Yourself
By now, you should be thinking ‘stuff everyone else’s opinion but my own’. So, go out and embarrass yourself who cares that they think? You don’t!
Stage 5 – The Bucket List
Do everything on your Bucket List, that when you created you didn’t think that you’d be able to do anything on it because of your Social Anxiety.
Stage 6 – The Test Run
Now you should be pretty confident in public now, so go give your new confidence a test run! Go into a shopping mall and scream, “Hello Everyone!” or walk into McDonalds and ask, “Which fast food place would they recommend”. Stupid stuff like that you know. Listen to music travelling home on the train or bus, etc.
P.S. Just contact me if you want to help me with this!!! :)
It goes like this...
Stages:
1) Part 1 – Social Anxiety
2) Part 2 – ‘the Plan’ My Acting Career
3) Part 2A – Job Searching
4) Part 3 – Operation: NM
Part 1 – Society Anxiety
Goal: to overcome my social anxiety and defeat the monster that rages inside me.
Stages:
1) Get comfortable in Public
2) Do stuff in Public
3) Normal Everyday Activities
4) Embarrassing Yourself
5) The Bucket List
6) Test Run
Stage 1 – Get comfortable in Public
Go out each day, put a whole list of places in a box and pull one out at random and then you have to go to the place that you pulled out, no exceptions. You don’t have to do anything, just walk around or sit on benches. Do a bit of shopping, whatever takes you fancy. Do this every day for ........
After you’ve finished this stage make sure that you can walk in anywhere and not feel embarrassed, in the toilets, cinema, street, park, shopping mall, where ever.
Stage 2 – Do Stuff in Public
By now you should be comfortable walking around in public and sitting down. So now, where ever you are start doing little stuff. Like taking your phone out of your bag and checking it, or applying lip balm. Or unwrapping gum and putting the piece in your mouth. Little stuff like that, wearing sunglasses, a hat. Go on a Photography Walk.
Stage 3 – Normal Everyday Activities
It’s time to take it to the next level, at this stage you should be more or less comfortable going out in public so start doing everyday activities that people do. Such as buying stuff, going to the toilet during a movie, going to the toilet in a restaurant, ordering in a restaurant, buying alcohol and cigarettes, catching the bus or train, getting makeovers, facials, pedi & manicures, eyebrows, etc. Go on a long bike ride, start powerwalking each morning and afternoon. Go jogging at night. Order at McDonalds. Buy Phone Credit and call up people, etc.
Stage 4 – Embarrassing Yourself
By now, you should be thinking ‘stuff everyone else’s opinion but my own’. So, go out and embarrass yourself who cares that they think? You don’t!
Stage 5 – The Bucket List
Do everything on your Bucket List, that when you created you didn’t think that you’d be able to do anything on it because of your Social Anxiety.
Stage 6 – The Test Run
Now you should be pretty confident in public now, so go give your new confidence a test run! Go into a shopping mall and scream, “Hello Everyone!” or walk into McDonalds and ask, “Which fast food place would they recommend”. Stupid stuff like that you know. Listen to music travelling home on the train or bus, etc.
P.S. Just contact me if you want to help me with this!!! :)
What Happened?
Just realized, I've gone from alright poems to &^&%&*((!! (rubbishy) poems in a matter of months.... what happened? :(
Oh and I seem to be different like I dunno hard to describe. More open? More opinated? LOL. More badass?? More talkative.... probably...! More withdrawn into myself, although I've alway been like that. I have no idea -_- I'm just not the same person that graduated from school in 2010. End of Story.
Oh and I seem to be different like I dunno hard to describe. More open? More opinated? LOL. More badass?? More talkative.... probably...! More withdrawn into myself, although I've alway been like that. I have no idea -_- I'm just not the same person that graduated from school in 2010. End of Story.
OMG.
OMG.
OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG <3
I would just like to say that I have just thought of one of the most BRILLAINT ideas ever. If I could sing/write/compose I could put all of these rubbishy poems (or whatever they are) into like a song or an album, or something like that.
Geez, I only wish I knew some one that played guitar... and wrote songs... ;)
OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG <3
I would just like to say that I have just thought of one of the most BRILLAINT ideas ever. If I could sing/write/compose I could put all of these rubbishy poems (or whatever they are) into like a song or an album, or something like that.
Geez, I only wish I knew some one that played guitar... and wrote songs... ;)
The Scorpio and the Aquarian
AN: I was intending to make this into a song, but really I need a super good inspiration to write a song and I can't be bothered, so whatever. If anyone wants to compose a song with me? Just ask :)
I stare at the space where you were standing but by now your long gone.
You always make things tedious and look into things way too much.
When I walk into a room, the atmosphere is so intense it has me shaking in my shoes, I avoid your gaze and stare down at the ground as you flutter 'round like a cyclone - your in one of your funks that I hate and there is nothing I can do.
You go off at me for the most random things, that I know nothing about.
I don't understand you, I know what you will say, "Girl don't do this and girl don't do that" all the while I just glare at you then storm off in a huff.
Dear Darling, we are incompatible and this is just never gonna work.
AN: I was thinking of calling this Dear Darling or something like that.
I stare at the space where you were standing but by now your long gone.
You always make things tedious and look into things way too much.
When I walk into a room, the atmosphere is so intense it has me shaking in my shoes, I avoid your gaze and stare down at the ground as you flutter 'round like a cyclone - your in one of your funks that I hate and there is nothing I can do.
You go off at me for the most random things, that I know nothing about.
I don't understand you, I know what you will say, "Girl don't do this and girl don't do that" all the while I just glare at you then storm off in a huff.
Dear Darling, we are incompatible and this is just never gonna work.
AN: I was thinking of calling this Dear Darling or something like that.
I formally introduce you to Ziggy ♥
Meet Ziggy Forest Houston ♥ Tortishell, currently 6 turning 7 this September :)
Adopted from the RSPCA in 2006, cost around $100.
Before that however, she resided in Forest Lake, Brisbane.
Her previous owner moved away when she was born taking her mother with them and leaving all of the little kitty sisters on their own.
When the next people moved into the house, the kittens were all discouvered underneath the house.
Ziggy had an adoptive sister, Casey but she died in year 10 on the last day of the holidays in term 3 :( I miss her.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Queen of Mean amoung other things.
Yes, that is my mum and we do not get along. Our personalites clash and we don't well together as it is know that Scorpios (me) and Aquarias's (mum) do not get along at all. It's kind of hard to explain, but lets just say that I don't talk to her about stuff so there may be a lot of confusion and when she tells me what to do, I get pissed because its my life and I'm in charge, another trait of being a Scoprio - you never reveil your true feelings, you keep many secrets and you like being in control.
This combination usually becomes unpleasant after a short time. Fuelled by Scorpio's instability and Aquarius's imagination, sex is quite unusual. But Aquarius will be turned off by Scorpio's dominant and jealous passions, and Scorpio is disturbed by Aquarius's changeable moods. Aquarius likes to participate in public interaction and Scorpio can't bend the Aquarius to their will, because of Aquarius' love of freedom. The Aquarius is sociable and the Scorpio, reserved.These two are best going their separate ways.
Aquarius Compatibility Rating: 3/10
http://www.aquarius-sign.com/aquarius-compatibility.html
When a Scorpio child is born to an Aquarius parent, the combination of the two mingles different needs and different philosophies. Though day-to-day conversation may be a bit strained, they undoubtedly love one another as a family. Scorpio has an emotional intensity with which they face life.
Aquarius has an unusual, idealistic world view. If child and parent can give each other some leeway, they will learn to appreciate the other's perspective. As Scorpio may be more introverted and prefer to be alone with their family, Aquarius enjoys a night out with friends or a huge dinner party. Both Scorpio and Aquarius have a tendency to be uncompliant and opinionated. Scorpio is probing, delves deeply into the hidden meaning of things. Meanwhile, Aquarius is modern and does not enjoy detail.
Scorpio will find Aquarius exciting, yet may not understand this revolutionary's mind. Aquarius will need to accommodate to the possessiveness or the amount of attention the Scorpio child requires. This family duo may appear to have few common interests, but these two are both possessed of strong willpower. When they set this force to a common goal, they are assured of its success.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Aquarius family relationship is the capacity for accomplishment in their synergy. Both Signs have very powerful personalities, so neither will openly dominate the other. Once they can work out their differences, come together and agree on their individual roles within the family, the fruits of this relationship can be sweet.
http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=aquarius
^^ GREAT WEBSITE. LOVE IT <333
Let's do my dad now ♥
When a Scorpio child is born to a Capricorn parent, they can help each other to mature as individuals and to learn the value of a loving and supportive family relationship. Shyness, reservations, and distrust of others may keep these two from establishing other relationships outside of the family.
This family relationship is very comfortable; so comfortable in fact that it may hamper the development of other personal relationships for both child and parent. Scorpio can learn to cool their heated emotions from Capricorn's proficient and stable behavior. However, this sentiment may also backfire for Scorpio who may become irritated at Capricorn's apparent lack of emotional depth. Capricorn can learn to probe more deeply within themselves and all aspects of life.
Capricorn's strong guiding hand and Scorpio's deep-feeling roots can be too much of a good thing. However, once they have learned to trust, share, and care for another person outside the family, their relationship will be more secure and stronger than ever before. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Capricorn family relationship is their determination to share ideas and their strong devotion to one another. Theirs is an excellent family relationship, and they can strive to teach one another about different ways of perception, as long as both parties go out to explore the world.
http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=capricorn
This combination usually becomes unpleasant after a short time. Fuelled by Scorpio's instability and Aquarius's imagination, sex is quite unusual. But Aquarius will be turned off by Scorpio's dominant and jealous passions, and Scorpio is disturbed by Aquarius's changeable moods. Aquarius likes to participate in public interaction and Scorpio can't bend the Aquarius to their will, because of Aquarius' love of freedom. The Aquarius is sociable and the Scorpio, reserved.These two are best going their separate ways.
Aquarius Compatibility Rating: 3/10
http://www.aquarius-sign.com/aquarius-compatibility.html
When a Scorpio child is born to an Aquarius parent, the combination of the two mingles different needs and different philosophies. Though day-to-day conversation may be a bit strained, they undoubtedly love one another as a family. Scorpio has an emotional intensity with which they face life.
Aquarius has an unusual, idealistic world view. If child and parent can give each other some leeway, they will learn to appreciate the other's perspective. As Scorpio may be more introverted and prefer to be alone with their family, Aquarius enjoys a night out with friends or a huge dinner party. Both Scorpio and Aquarius have a tendency to be uncompliant and opinionated. Scorpio is probing, delves deeply into the hidden meaning of things. Meanwhile, Aquarius is modern and does not enjoy detail.
Scorpio will find Aquarius exciting, yet may not understand this revolutionary's mind. Aquarius will need to accommodate to the possessiveness or the amount of attention the Scorpio child requires. This family duo may appear to have few common interests, but these two are both possessed of strong willpower. When they set this force to a common goal, they are assured of its success.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Aquarius family relationship is the capacity for accomplishment in their synergy. Both Signs have very powerful personalities, so neither will openly dominate the other. Once they can work out their differences, come together and agree on their individual roles within the family, the fruits of this relationship can be sweet.
http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=aquarius
^^ GREAT WEBSITE. LOVE IT <333
Let's do my dad now ♥
When a Scorpio child is born to a Capricorn parent, they can help each other to mature as individuals and to learn the value of a loving and supportive family relationship. Shyness, reservations, and distrust of others may keep these two from establishing other relationships outside of the family.
This family relationship is very comfortable; so comfortable in fact that it may hamper the development of other personal relationships for both child and parent. Scorpio can learn to cool their heated emotions from Capricorn's proficient and stable behavior. However, this sentiment may also backfire for Scorpio who may become irritated at Capricorn's apparent lack of emotional depth. Capricorn can learn to probe more deeply within themselves and all aspects of life.
Capricorn's strong guiding hand and Scorpio's deep-feeling roots can be too much of a good thing. However, once they have learned to trust, share, and care for another person outside the family, their relationship will be more secure and stronger than ever before. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task.
The best aspect of the Scorpio-Capricorn family relationship is their determination to share ideas and their strong devotion to one another. Theirs is an excellent family relationship, and they can strive to teach one another about different ways of perception, as long as both parties go out to explore the world.
http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=capricorn
Monday, April 18, 2011
Draw a Heart on Your Wrist Day
On April 25th 2011, at 12am and onwards there will be a day dedicated to people who are battling depression and suicide and to advocate a lifestyle of unconditional love. On this day, draw a heart on your wrist, to symbolize that you are wearing your heart on your sleeve. ask someone how they’re doing. tell someone you love them. nobody should have to feel so bad about themselves that they take their own life. Take this challenge. Save someone’s life.
Source: http://www.yoga.com/ydc/enlighten/enlighten_document.asp?ID=505§ion=6&cat=132
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