A Blog that I Can Seriously Relate To at this Precise and Present Moment

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SHUT UP.

Why the hell can't you just shut up?
Let me do what I want, and get on with my life.
I can't do anything when your always looking over my shoulder, watching my every move, telling me what to do.

You say you'll support in whatever I want to do, well you are a hypocrite as well as a liar.
You say every where in Brisbane is easy to get to, well there you again, LYING again.

Do you only pull out that line when it suites you, is it? HEY!

JUST SHUT THE DAMN FUCK UP!

How dare he! I mean how fucking dare he!! He is always like this, arrogant, selfish and thinks that he is right all the time. It is an understatment to say that I am furious right now, it's not about which computer I want to use, its about that I turned the laptop and the internet on, then I went outside while it started up when I came back the laptop had disappered. He had taken it into the kicthen, he didn't ask if I was using it nor nothing he just took it, isn't it obvious that someone was using it??? I mean it was open, is he that dumb to even realize that?!?! Arrogant bloody dickhead.

I will do anything! BLOODY ANYTHING!! to get away from him even if it means facing my social anxiety head on and handing out resumes, anything to get away from him. No Joke.

Who the hell does she think she is!? Trying to control my life... AGAIN! She's such a hyprocrite saying and I quote, "You are in charge of your own life now". Well, what the hell is that!?!????!!!

"Chemistry? I don't think soooo".

Shutup. If I wanna do it I will do it and I will not go done without a damn fight.

How?

Nobody understands me.

They don’t understand about my Social Anxiety.

“She’s so quiet” “She’s so shy” “You need to louder!” “No one is gonna bite you”

I’ve tried explaining it to mother before, but she just does not get it. Says that I will overcome it.

How is that gonna happen? May I ask?

When I’ve had this disorder right from the start?

-_-

FUCKING.HOW?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJfFZqTlWrQ

Pink - So What?

Love it <333 My Fave New Song. Watch it or die :)

Still working on 'First Year'

Today, I started to write my first composition in my music book. See what've I done today.



Yesterday, you heard the first few seconds of the song, today you see to see more it.

Short Preview of 'Firstday of School'

This is a preview of the song, I am currently writing. So yeahh. Don't hate it, when it's finished it will be better :)

It

Dreams & It - Are two poems I forgot to Publish, soz.

Dreams

XOXO

EVELYN CLARK, ARE YOU READING THIS. COMMENT IF YOU ARE. LOVE YOU :)

Social Anxiety

Ahh mother...you are infuriating but only because you have no idea of what I've been doing. You claim that I am doing nothing but sitting on my arse all day - well, I object! I have been working on a plan to conquer my Social Anxiety (!) unbekwonst to you.

It goes like this...

Stages:
1) Part 1 – Social Anxiety
2) Part 2 – ‘the Plan’ My Acting Career
3) Part 2A – Job Searching
4) Part 3 – Operation: NM

Part 1 – Society Anxiety

Goal: to overcome my social anxiety and defeat the monster that rages inside me.

Stages:
1) Get comfortable in Public
2) Do stuff in Public
3) Normal Everyday Activities
4) Embarrassing Yourself
5) The Bucket List
6) Test Run

Stage 1 – Get comfortable in Public
Go out each day, put a whole list of places in a box and pull one out at random and then you have to go to the place that you pulled out, no exceptions. You don’t have to do anything, just walk around or sit on benches. Do a bit of shopping, whatever takes you fancy. Do this every day for ........
After you’ve finished this stage make sure that you can walk in anywhere and not feel embarrassed, in the toilets, cinema, street, park, shopping mall, where ever.

Stage 2 – Do Stuff in Public
By now you should be comfortable walking around in public and sitting down. So now, where ever you are start doing little stuff. Like taking your phone out of your bag and checking it, or applying lip balm. Or unwrapping gum and putting the piece in your mouth. Little stuff like that, wearing sunglasses, a hat. Go on a Photography Walk.

Stage 3 – Normal Everyday Activities
It’s time to take it to the next level, at this stage you should be more or less comfortable going out in public so start doing everyday activities that people do. Such as buying stuff, going to the toilet during a movie, going to the toilet in a restaurant, ordering in a restaurant, buying alcohol and cigarettes, catching the bus or train, getting makeovers, facials, pedi & manicures, eyebrows, etc. Go on a long bike ride, start powerwalking each morning and afternoon. Go jogging at night. Order at McDonalds. Buy Phone Credit and call up people, etc.

Stage 4 – Embarrassing Yourself
By now, you should be thinking ‘stuff everyone else’s opinion but my own’. So, go out and embarrass yourself who cares that they think? You don’t!

Stage 5 – The Bucket List
Do everything on your Bucket List, that when you created you didn’t think that you’d be able to do anything on it because of your Social Anxiety.

Stage 6 – The Test Run
Now you should be pretty confident in public now, so go give your new confidence a test run! Go into a shopping mall and scream, “Hello Everyone!” or walk into McDonalds and ask, “Which fast food place would they recommend”. Stupid stuff like that you know. Listen to music travelling home on the train or bus, etc.



P.S. Just contact me if you want to help me with this!!! :)

What Happened?

Just realized, I've gone from alright poems to &^&%&*((!! (rubbishy) poems in a matter of months.... what happened? :(

Oh and I seem to be different like I dunno hard to describe. More open? More opinated? LOL. More badass?? More talkative.... probably...! More withdrawn into myself, although I've alway been like that. I have no idea -_- I'm just not the same person that graduated from school in 2010. End of Story.

OMG.

OMG.
OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.
OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG.OMG <3

I would just like to say that I have just thought of one of the most BRILLAINT ideas ever. If I could sing/write/compose I could put all of these rubbishy poems (or whatever they are) into like a song or an album, or something like that.

Geez, I only wish I knew some one that played guitar... and wrote songs... ;)

The Scorpio and the Aquarian

AN: I was intending to make this into a song, but really I need a super good inspiration to write a song and I can't be bothered, so whatever. If anyone wants to compose a song with me? Just ask :)

I stare at the space where you were standing but by now your long gone.

You always make things tedious and look into things way too much.

When I walk into a room, the atmosphere is so intense it has me shaking in my shoes, I avoid your gaze and stare down at the ground as you flutter 'round like a cyclone - your in one of your funks that I hate and there is nothing I can do.

You go off at me for the most random things, that I know nothing about.

I don't understand you, I know what you will say, "Girl don't do this and girl don't do that" all the while I just glare at you then storm off in a huff.

Dear Darling, we are incompatible and this is just never gonna work.

AN: I was thinking of calling this Dear Darling or something like that.

I formally introduce you to Ziggy ♥

Meet Ziggy Forest Houston ♥ Tortishell, currently 6 turning 7 this September :)
Adopted from the RSPCA in 2006, cost around $100.
Before that however, she resided in Forest Lake, Brisbane.
Her previous owner moved away when she was born taking her mother with them and leaving all of the little kitty sisters on their own.
When the next people moved into the house, the kittens were all discouvered underneath the house.

Ziggy had an adoptive sister, Casey but she died in year 10 on the last day of the holidays in term 3 :( I miss her.

Queen of Mean amoung other things.

Yes, that is my mum and we do not get along. Our personalites clash and we don't well together as it is know that Scorpios (me) and Aquarias's (mum) do not get along at all. It's kind of hard to explain, but lets just say that I don't talk to her about stuff so there may be a lot of confusion and when she tells me what to do, I get pissed because its my life and I'm in charge, another trait of being a Scoprio - you never reveil your true feelings, you keep many secrets and you like being in control.



This combination usually becomes unpleasant after a short time. Fuelled by Scorpio's instability and Aquarius's imagination, sex is quite unusual. But Aquarius will be turned off by Scorpio's dominant and jealous passions, and Scorpio is disturbed by Aquarius's changeable moods. Aquarius likes to participate in public interaction and Scorpio can't bend the Aquarius to their will, because of Aquarius' love of freedom. The Aquarius is sociable and the Scorpio, reserved.These two are best going their separate ways.
Aquarius Compatibility Rating: 3/10

http://www.aquarius-sign.com/aquarius-compatibility.html

When a Scorpio child is born to an Aquarius parent, the combination of the two mingles different needs and different philosophies. Though day-to-day conversation may be a bit strained, they undoubtedly love one another as a family. Scorpio has an emotional intensity with which they face life.

Aquarius has an unusual, idealistic world view. If child and parent can give each other some leeway, they will learn to appreciate the other's perspective. As Scorpio may be more introverted and prefer to be alone with their family, Aquarius enjoys a night out with friends or a huge dinner party. Both Scorpio and Aquarius have a tendency to be uncompliant and opinionated. Scorpio is probing, delves deeply into the hidden meaning of things. Meanwhile, Aquarius is modern and does not enjoy detail.

Scorpio will find Aquarius exciting, yet may not understand this revolutionary's mind. Aquarius will need to accommodate to the possessiveness or the amount of attention the Scorpio child requires. This family duo may appear to have few common interests, but these two are both possessed of strong willpower. When they set this force to a common goal, they are assured of its success.

The best aspect of the Scorpio-Aquarius family relationship is the capacity for accomplishment in their synergy. Both Signs have very powerful personalities, so neither will openly dominate the other. Once they can work out their differences, come together and agree on their individual roles within the family, the fruits of this relationship can be sweet.

http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=aquarius

^^ GREAT WEBSITE. LOVE IT <333

Let's do my dad now ♥

When a Scorpio child is born to a Capricorn parent, they can help each other to mature as individuals and to learn the value of a loving and supportive family relationship. Shyness, reservations, and distrust of others may keep these two from establishing other relationships outside of the family.

This family relationship is very comfortable; so comfortable in fact that it may hamper the development of other personal relationships for both child and parent. Scorpio can learn to cool their heated emotions from Capricorn's proficient and stable behavior. However, this sentiment may also backfire for Scorpio who may become irritated at Capricorn's apparent lack of emotional depth. Capricorn can learn to probe more deeply within themselves and all aspects of life.

Capricorn's strong guiding hand and Scorpio's deep-feeling roots can be too much of a good thing. However, once they have learned to trust, share, and care for another person outside the family, their relationship will be more secure and stronger than ever before. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task.

The best aspect of the Scorpio-Capricorn family relationship is their determination to share ideas and their strong devotion to one another. Theirs is an excellent family relationship, and they can strive to teach one another about different ways of perception, as long as both parties go out to explore the world.

http://astrology.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/family/?sign1=scorpio&sign2=capricorn

Draw a Heart on Your Wrist Day

On April 25th 2011, at 12am and onwards there will be a day dedicated to people who are battling depression and suicide and to advocate a lifestyle of unconditional love. On this day, draw a heart on your wrist, to symbolize that you are wearing your heart on your sleeve. ask someone how they’re doing. tell someone you love them. nobody should have to feel so bad about themselves that they take their own life. Take this challenge. Save someone’s life.











Source: http://www.yoga.com/ydc/enlighten/enlighten_document.asp?ID=505§ion=6&cat=132

The Smirking Horror

So yeah, I have one younger brother called Hamish, otherwise referred to as the 'Smirking Horror' as I like to call him.

A few years ago, in 2008 I think. Someone said that when I turn 18 and finish school my brother and I would become bestest friends well, I didn't think that would happen and I still don't think it will. I've turned 18 and finished school and my life is still hell as it was 2 years ago -_-

I wanted to move out then and I still do want to move out, I mean just to get away from him. He makes my life a living hell, I was intending to post a picture of him but you know he might get a bit pissed without his consent so I settled upon googling his name and this is what I discouvered.



Apparently, Hamish is either a dog or....



A Pair of Boots, they are the two most common pics that kept on coming up. A dog and a few pairs of shoes.

A few googles later: The awkward moment when Hamish Houston says "I feel you" in a comment.

http://www.likepage.co/162480/The_awkward_moment_when_Hamish/

And like always just I just couldn't resist doing a bit of editing, if anything the picture looks better than it was in it's orignal state.

Stop thinking about writing songs, and start writing songs. You really want to be a famous star, don’t you? You daydream about being on stage and hearing the roar of the crowd. Only trouble is, gee whiz, you’re dreaming your life away. If you want to write a really good song, you’re going to have to work for it. Start today. Commit to writing a certain number of songs per week, the way successful authors commit to writing a thousand words a day.

^^ that is what I do, I'm all dream not action and I wanna go into action I'm just scared to :X

Heart.Heart.Heart.

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Just Something to Think About...

I believe in chasing down you dreams and shooting for the stars because you never know when it's gonna come to an end. You might die in a tragic car accident, or in a freak plane crash.You might develop cancer and not know for many year until it's too late or you could just not wake up one morning which many people take for granted that they would wake up.

But hopefully you'll live to a ripe old age of 80+ with successfully achieving your dreams, I'd prefer to live a short and happy life than live a long dull and boring one.

My dream is to become an actor or at least work in the film industry. I'd love to be a performing artist travelling, acting, dancing and singing my way around the world.

So like you know, enough is enough. I'm Zoe, I'm 18, I suffer from Social Anxiety and I want to be an actor, and I can't be fucked if you don't like me because I've had enough of worrying what other people think of me.

I would LOVE to compose/write a song with someone, but as long as that person could sing because I can't and yes, I do have a person in mind as I write this but I'm to shy to ask but Nella Vita – chi non risica, non rosica. So I'm gonna ask her eventually :) HINT: This person would love music to be their forte and they can play the guitar, also I would love to be friends with her and she may just be reading this.



Spencer Bell — poet, musician, artist — passed away in December of 2006 from adrenal cancer and if I must say also the coolest guy around. I love his poems! Goshh.

LOL

I wanted to work with the dead and be a private investigator :) SO.TRUE.

The Scorpio

Scorpios are the most intense, profound, powerful characters in the zodiac. Even when they appear self-controlled and calm there is a seething intensity of emotional energy under the placid exterior. They are like the volcano not far under the surface of a calm sea, it may burst into eruption at any moment. But those of us who are particularly perceptive will be aware of the harnessed aggression, the immense forcefulness, magnetic intensity, and often strangely hypnotic personality under the tranquil, but watchful composure of Scorpio. In conventional social gatherings they are pleasant to be with, thoughtful in conversation, dignified, and reserved, yet affable and courteous; they sometimes possess penetrating eyes which make their shyer companions feel naked and defenseless before them.

In their everyday behavior they give the appearance of being withdrawn from the center of activity, yet those who know them will recognize the watchfulness that is part of their character. They need great self-discipline, because they are able to recognize the qualities in themselves that make them different from other humans, and to know their utterly conventional natures can be used for great good, or great evil. Their tenacity and willpower are immense, their depth of character and passionate conviction overwhelming, yet they are deeply sensitive and easily moved by their emotions. Their sensitivity, together with a propensity for extreme likes and dislikes make them easily hurt, quick to detect insult or injury to themselves (often when none is intended) and easily aroused to ferocious anger. This may express itself in such destructive speech or action that they make lifelong enemies by their outspokenness, for they find it difficult not to be overly critical of anything or anyone to whom they take a dislike.

They can harness their abundant energy constructively, tempering their self-confidence with shrewdness and their ambition with magnanimity toward others provided they like them. They relate to fellow workers only as leaders and can be blunt to those they dislike to the point of cruelty. In fact they are not above expressing vindictiveness in deliberate cruelty. They are too demanding, too unforgiving of faults in others, perhaps because they are not aware of the shortcomings within themselves, and extravagantly express their self-disgust in unreasonable resentment against their fellows. They do, however, make excellent friends, provided that their companions do nothing to impugn the honor of which Scorpios are very jealous. Part of the negative side of the Scorpio nature is a tendency to discard friends once they cease to be useful, but the decent native is aware of, and fights this tendency.

They are fortunate in that their strong reasoning powers are tempered with imagination and intuition, and these gifts, together with critical perception and analytical capacity, can enable the Scorpions to penetrate to profundities beyond the average. They have a better chance of becoming geniuses than the natives of any other sign.But charismatic "twice-born" characters such as they can sink into the extremes of depravity if they take the wrong path, and the intensity of their nature exaggerates their harmful tendencies into vices far greater than the normal.
Rebelliousness against all conventions, political extremism to the point where hatred of the Establishment makes them utterly unscrupulous terrorists. Brooding resentment, aggressive and sadistic brutality, total arrogance, morbid jealousy, extreme volatility of temperament, these are some of their vices. At the other extreme is the procrastinator, the man or woman who is capable of so much that they do nothing and become indolent and self-indulgent, requiring extravagant praise and flattery from those whom they make their cronies.

Being so gifted, they can find fulfillment in many employments. Their inner intensity can result in the ice-cold self-control and detachment of the surgeon, the concentration of the research scientist, and the heroism of the soldier. Any profession in which analysis, investigation, research, dealing with practicalities, and the solving of mysteries are relevant, can appeal to them. So police and detective work, espionage and counterespionage, the law, physics or psychology may attract them, and they can become masters of the written and spoken word. They may be most persuasive orators and find fulfillment as diplomats or preachers and, if they make the Church their profession, their inner intensity can express itself in the spiritual fervor of the mystic or the thaumaturgy.

Scorpio is the symbol of sex and Scorpios are passionate lovers, the most sensually energetic of all the signs. For them, union with the beloved is a sacrament, an "outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace.". Their overriding urge in loving is to use their power to penetrate beyond themselves and to lose themselves sexually in their partners in an almost mystical ecstasy, thus discovering the meaning of that union which is greater than individuality, and is a marriage of the spirit as well as of flesh. They are thus capable of the greatest heights of passionate transport, but debauchery and perversion are always dangers, and Scorpios can become sadistic monsters of sensuality and eroticism. Their feelings are so intense that even when their love is of the highest, and most idealistic kind, they are nevertheless frequently protagonists in tragic, even violent romances, "star-crossed lovers".
Possible Health Concerns...
Scorpio governs the pelvis and reproductive and urinary systems and its subjects are said to be prone to ailments of the liver and kidneys, stones and gravel in the bladder or genitals, and other genital ills such as priapism. Abscesses, boils, carbuncles, fistulas, piles, ruptures and ulcers may also affect the Scorpions.



horoscopes

LIKES
Truth
Hidden Causes
Being involved
Work That is Meaningful
Being Persuasive

DISLIKES
Being Given Only Surface data
Taken Advantage of
Demeaning Jobs
Shallow Relationships
Flattery and Flattering

Ummmmmmmmmmmm...

Well, people said when i turned 18 and left school my brothe and i would become bestest friends, well i am 18 now and have left school and not much has changed. my brother is still that same person he was 2 years ago bullying, tormenting me, making me cry, getting me into trouble, etc, etc. Two years I wanted to move out to get away from him and now i still do want to move out to get away from him. He is the 'Smirking Horror' of all Evils that may or may not exist in this world.

I have zero respect for people like that and i am not making this shit up. it's all true, i have a book where I write down stuff like this. it's not nice to treat people the way he does and btw this is not just sibling rivilary :/

NOT HAPPY JAN.

What the bloody fuck?

Explain this to me..

When I was 16, my brothers age, there was no way in HELL I'd be able to watch a R rated movie.

But now mum is letting him! I'm just like WTF.
He just freaking gets away with everything! :(

It is so unfair....

Robsten VS. the World

Everywhere they go,
the pictures always show,
where they've been or who've they seen.

They can never escape to peace and quiet,
coz' there will always be someone hidin' nearby.

I'm Here, Right Now.

AN: Sorry! I haven't posted in awhile. I forgot, oopsie :| *Cheesy Grin* Don't h8te me my non existant readers, haha :/

I'm Here, Right Now

Whoa, watch out!
I'm coming to get you,
I'm gonna rock out,
rock the world like never before.

I'm here, right now.
Just a few miles from you,
so you better be prepared for when I come to town :)

Zo's Wishlist 2011 #1

 An Ipod (since the MP3 has long since died) with a dock (so I can play the songs in my room incase the earphones break, which they do about once every 2 months)
 A whole years supply of earphones (since they have an odd tendency to break really easily when I use them, I am REALLY careful with them. They just do not like me )
 A lap top (Yet again I request this, this particular item has been on here for 2 years now)
 Lots of Toblerone Bars (I LOVE them) and Chuppa Chups (Yum Yum)
 Hair Curler (Another thing that been here for many years, it is awkward, difficult and annoying curling your hair with a straightner, the effect does look as good and it just plainly sucks, end of story)
 A Large Sound System with MASSIVE speakers (*grins* I have ALWAYS wanted one of these, they are the coolest things ever even though they maybe so big, they would be so worth it)
 A Black BMW Mini Cooper

Home is Where the Heart Is

Nobody cares if I go,
They wouldn’t miss me,
They are all so perfect for each other,
While I’m just the messed up one.

I don’t fit into their family,
And I shouldn’t even be here,
Home is where the heart is,
And my heart is not here.

United in Love

"What If"

What if we were friends more than lovers,
what if we didn't know who eachother was,
Somewhere in the future, way ahead of time,
there is a place where we will make love.

What if we are just carving our paths towards the future,
Never stopping till we give up,
hoping to lay our eyes on eachother until we find one true love.

What if we were destined to be together,
Not knowing what to do,
Destined to be together, forver and happily united in love.

You'll regret your decision,
when you find out that I'm a vision,
you won't know what hit you,
when you turned me away.

You'll wish you employed me,
and didn't ignore me,
because your just wasting a whole heap of talent away.

:P

Parenting Timeline

Rose 0 25 2017

Rose 2 27 2013
Bella 0 27 2013

Rose 4 29 2015
Bella 2 29 2015
Alice 0 29 2015

Rose 6 31 2017
Bella 4 31 2017
Alice 2 31 2017
Brianna 0 31 2017

Rose 8 33 2019
Bella 6 33 2019
Alice 4 33 2019
Brianna 2 33 2019
Morgana 0 33 2019

Rose 10 35 2021
Bella 8 35 2021
Alice 6 35 2021
Brianna 4 35 2021
Morgana 2 35 2021
Kim 0 35 2021

Rose 12 37 2023
Bella 10 37 2023
Alice 8 37 2023
Brianna 6 37 2023
Morgana 4 37 2023
Kim 2 37 2023
Dimitri 0 37 2023

Rose 14 39 2025
Bella 12 39 2025
Alice 10 39 2025
Brianna 8 39 2025
Morgana 6 39 2025
Kim 4 39 2025
Dimitri 2 39 2025
Edward 0 39 2025

Rose 16 41 2027
Bella 14 41 2027
Alice 12 41 2027
Brianna 10 41 2027
Morgana 8 41 2027
Kim 6 41 2027
Dimitri 4 41 2027
Edward 2 41 2027
Jacob 0 41 2027

Rose 18 43 2029
Bella 16 43 2029
Alice 14 43 2029
Brianna 12 43 2029
Morgana 10 43 2029
Kim 8 43 2029
Dimitri 6 43 2029
Edward 4 43 2029
Jacob 2 43 2029
James 0 43 2029

Rose 20 45 2031
Bella 18 45 2031
Alice 16 45 2031
Brianna 14 45 2031
Morgana 12 45 2031
Kim 10 45 2031
Dimitri 8 45 2031
Edward 6 45 2031
Jacob 4 45 2031
James 2 45 2031
Emmett 0 45 2031

Rose 22 47 2033
Bella 20 47 2033
Alice 18 47 2033
Brianna 16 47 2033
Morgana 14 47 2033
Kin 12 47 2033
Dimitri 10 47 2033
Edward 8 47 2033
Jacob 6 47 2033
James 4 47 2033
Emmett 2 47 2033
Jasper 0 47 2033

Rose 24 49 2035
Bella 22 49 2035
Alice 20 49 2035
Brianna 18 49 2035
Morgana 16 49 2035
Kin 14 49 2035
Dimitri 12 49 2035
Edward 10 49 2035
Jacob 8 49 2035
James 6 49 2035
Emmett 4 49 2035
Jasper 2 49 2035

Rose 26 51 2037
Bella 24 51 2038
Alice 22 51 2037
Brianna 20 51 2037
Morgana 18 51 2037
Kin 16 51 2037
Dimitri 14 51 2037
Edward 12 51 2037
Jacob 10 51 2037
James 8 51 2037
Emmett 6 51 2037
Jasper 4 51 2037

Rose 28 53 2039
Bella 26 53 2039
Alice 24 53 2039
Brianna 22 53 2039
Morgana 20 53 2039
Kin 18 53 2039
Dimitri 16 53 2039
Edward 14 53 2039
Jacob 12 53 2039
James 10 53 2039
Emmett 8 53 2039
Jasper 6 53 2039

Rose 30 55 2041
Bella 28 55 2041
Alice 26 55 2041
Brianna 24 55 2041
Morgana 22 55 2041
Kin 20 55 2041
Dimitri 18 55 2041
Edward 16 55 2041
Jacob 14 55 2041
James 12 55 2041
Emmett 10 55 2041
Jasper 8 55 2041

Rose 32 57 2043
Bella 30 57 2043
Alice 28 57 2043
Brianna 26 57 2043
Morgana 24 57 2043
Kin 22 57 2043
Dimitri 20 57 2043
Edward 18 57 2034
Jacob 16 57 2043
James 14 57 2043
Emmett 12 57 2043
Jasper 10 57 2043


Rose 34 59 2045
Bella 32 59 2045
Alice 30 59 2045
Brianna 28 59 2045
Morgana 26 59 2045
Kin 24 59 2045
Dimitri 22 59 2045
Edward 20 59 2045
Jacob 18 59 2045
James 16 59 2045
Emmett 14 59 2045
Jasper 12 59 2045


Rose 36 61 2047
Bella 34 61 2047
Alice 32 61 2047
Brianna 30 61 2047
Morgana 28 61 2047
Kin 26 61 2047
Dimitri 24 61 2047
Edward 22 61 2047
Jacob 20 61 2047
James 18 61 2047
Emmett 16 61 2047
Jasper 14 61 2047


Rose 38 61 2049
Bella 36 61 2049
Alice 34 6 2049
Brianna 32 61 2049
Morgana 30 61 2049
Kim 28 61 2049
Dimitri 26 61 2049
Edward 24 61 2049
Jacob 22 61 2049
James 20 61 2049
Emmett 18 61 2049
Jasper 16 61 2049

Rose 40 63 2051
Bella 38 63 2051
Alice 36 63 2051
Brianna 34 63 2051
Morgana 32 63 2051
Kim 30 63 2051
Dimitri 28 63 2051
Edward 26 63 2051
Jacob 24 63 2051
James 22 63 2051
Emmett 20 63 2051
Jasper 18 63 2051

My Children

Girls
- Rosalie Lillian
- Mary Alice Scarlett
- Isabella Marie
- Brianna Kelsey
- Kimberley Renesmee
- Morgana Raven

Boys
- Dimitri Marcus
- Edward Anthony
- Emmett Dale
- Jasper Hayden
- James Patrick
- Jacob Ephraim

Hormonal Teenager

One minute your happy the next your down,
Can you please stop with your mood swings?
You’re giving me whiplash.

You’re like a hormonal teenager, jeez.
One minute your all chatty and nice the next your just telling everyone to piss off.
I don’t get it, your crazy.
All I want is my momma back, the nice one.

Your Mood

When you’re in a mood,
You make sure everyone else is too.

There is no escaping the whirlwind of madness that you leave behind,
You’re your pissed; everyone else that you come into contact with is too,
Especially sensitive people me.

It’s impossible to escape your wrath,
It creeps, its climbs, it scarpers up the wall,
Until you meet your untimely fall.

Don’t think I don’t know how your feeling,
I’ve felt it many times already,
Each time mainly involving you.

Jobless 2

And I'm sorry you lost that girl as well :)

Jobless

Screw them if I don’t get a job,
It’s their fault because they don’t know on what they’re missing out,
They’ll regret their decision not to hire me when I can laugh in their faces.
They’ll all be working 14/7 and I’ll just be chilling,
Grinning from ear to ear and becoming on TV,
Because I’m going to become an actress if it’s the last thing I do.

FAIL.

I fail epically,
there goes my downfall,
I'll never reach my goal,
since dad keeps stuffing my face with treats,
I'll never get that skinny waist that I've always dreamed of,
I can't believe I'm saying this but...

I need my mom :(

Your Face

I will become skinny,
I will become great,
I will win this race,
so in your face.

See Me Now

I was treated like a fool,
a worthless being,
Until you came along and showed me the light,
I know I have so many fears to conquer,
I just didn't know how great.

I realized that's what I wanna do,
that day in seventh grade,
behind that unbelievebly shy girl was a great performer just waiting to jump out.

I was scared I was gonna be teased so I lied and scribbled down hairdresser instead,
I regret that thought, but I do not regret that moment,
it just happened to me like a smack on the face but I was secretly pleased,
it was my calling.

That day I recognized that I wanted to be an actor for the rest of my life,
through the thick and thin,
it and I shall never part no matter what everyone says I just wont give it up,
it was full of goodness and joy because it's the only thing I love*







*Besides Ziggy, my cat, of course & my family - I guess :|

Freak of Nature

I don't see why people react to me the way the way they do,
what did I do? It makes me so confused, I just don't get it.

I can't figure out what's wrong.

Even complete strangers react weirdly to me.

♥

Just wanna say I ♥ this site, but now I have tumblr && it sucks.

SERIOUSLY. NO JOKE.

Let's hope that I get the hang of it.

I is the most HARDEST site, I ever tried to use.
Even harder than myspace, when I first started.

It's annoying and confusing.
And if it had a neck, I would be wringing it.

♥ this site, now I appreciate it so so much :) Ahaha.

Change

It's time to change,
its time to show the real me.

If you don't like it,
you don't have to say anything,
but that's up to you,
I don't care either way.

Just to let you know,
that your cow*,
And if you insult me,
well I would insult you back but I think mother nature has already done a fine job.

*You know who you are :)

Dear Friend

I thought you were my friend,
someone I could trust and confide in,
but in the end I was wrong,
I thought you were different,
but your just like all the others,
like the icing on top of a cake,
all sweet and innocent in the beginning,
but then your true colors show through,
And underneath it all your just

A TRAITOR

IGNORANT

and a BULLY.

Don't you think at all how our 'friendship' may of impacted on me?
When you ignore my cries in the playground and try to avoid me during the day,
leaving me standing there not knowing what to do,
thinking "What did I do, how come no one wants to be my friend?"

Because in the end your just like all the others, a traitor, a bully and so ignorant.

So what did I do? I'm still asking myself that... Care to explain?

Goin' Right

Everything sucks when you do not know what to do,
the world is spinning out of control,
your experasted and exhausted,
and just want to give up,
because nothing is going right.

-by ZKH

I'm Stupid I'm Useless, I can't do anything right...

Like It or Lump It

You think your helping,
I know your critizing.

Thankyou for the mess you've put me in,
Everything would be simple if you just listened.

But I don't know what your problem is.

-by ZKH

Thelma & Louise

The story of two girls who rode and travelled from afar,
then after awhile hooked up in a bar.

***

Dead Shit happened and they fled,
one of them hoping they may wed.

The other got laid and didn't pay for her Wild Turkey that she took.

In the end they continued their adventure and flew off a cliff.

-by ZKH

Darkness in the Light

I feel like I’m gonna explode,
The darkness is gonna swallow me,
The light is going to fade.

-by ZKH

So Many Things Wrong...

Guilt brings you down to frown town,
But you know it’ll never touch you.

SAD makes you sad,
And you know it’ll always be.

You can’t be yourself,
And that is a drag.

When people abandonment is around,
Luring and laughing at you.

Overweight it hefty,
You always feel crazy.

-by ZKH

Thankyou.

You know you’ll never understand if I tell you,
I know you’ll never get it even though you’ll try to pretend.

Ignorance is bliss then if you don’t understand,
And in the end that is the way I like it.

You maybe concerned but I understand,
I’ll solve all the problems with or without you.
I don’t care.

But please just give me peace and let me get on,
Then all will be fine, thank you.

-by ZKH

Nobody Gets It

Nobody understands me,
Nobody gets me,
They don’t know what I go through.

They don’t know my life sucks,
At times I think that I’ve had enough,
But there is something that you must know,
That I’m gonna come back and your gonna regret what you did.

So just a little warning,
Try not to look so shocked and confused,
Darling.

Because I’ll always be around :)

-by ZKH

Rub It In

Why do you have to rub it in?
Don’t you know that I hate it?

I can never be myself,
For the fear of being ridiculed.
All you like to do is make fun.
Shove people around, you pretend to be nice.
When in fact ganging up is bullying.
And it’s not nice.
I hate it.

I can never be myself at home, or in school or out in public too.
I can never relax of the fear of being pushed around,
Your opinions matter way too much.

That is why I am about to give up.
I am sorry. This is the end of everything.

The Girl

The girl sits there in the black chair,
Staring emotionless into this air,
She sighs and then turns around.

Her eyes are devoid of any emotion,
but her face tells it all,
the pain, the misery, its all there.
You have to look.

She frowns down at the ground before meeting your eyes.
And you stare back at her in suprise.

She's so strong, so strong but the cracks are appearing ever so slowly.

She gives you a tight smile and turns away as you roll your eyes.

Oh God.

The most coolest awesomest story ever!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhd1OTpWHEQ

btw, don't mind the twilight pics, it was the first vid that i clicked one :D

http://www.queendom.com/queendom_tests/transfer

You often view setbacks as a challenge, a game to beat, an opportunity, or a way to learn something new, rather than as barriers in the way of your goals. This persistent attitude helps you view negative events in your life as less stressful, and helps you stay motivated. People who view setbacks as a challenge rather than a hardship are usually able to move forward from difficult situations sooner; they learn from their mistakes, and are more flexible with their plans in life. If you experience unexpected setbacks, remember to look for what you can learn from the situation, and try to keep your naturally positive mindset.

*Two thumbs and two big toes up* *Grins*

Ms. Grumpypants

Your not happy unless everyone around you is in a grumpy mood,
to match your sour persona,
you live in misery and no one can be happy unless you are too.

You kill the vibe all around,
the air is dark and gray,
like a stormy cloud heading over the horizon,
the storms stirs and wipes around with such velocity.

Not many people notice it,
but I know that I do.

Tell Me! What the hell? It's just a party in the USA

Songs with lyrics that I can relate to atm. Enjoy! :D

What the Hell – Avril Lavigne
All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Tell Me Something I Don’t Know – Selena Gomez
Everybody tells me,
That it's so hard to make it,
Yet so hard to break it,
And there's no way to fake it,
Everybody tells me that it's wrong what I'm feeling,
I shouldn't believe in,
The dreams that I'm dreaming,

I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind.
Oh!

Party in the USA – Miley Cyrus
I hopped off the plane at LAX
with a dream and my cardigan
welcome to the land of fame excess, (woah)
am I gonna fit in?

Jumped in the cab,
Here I am for the first time
Look to my right and I see the Hollywood sign
This is all so crazy
Everybody seems so famous

My tummys turnin and I'm feelin kinda home sick
Too much pressure and I'm nervous,
That's when the taxi man turned on the radio
and a Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on
and the Jay Z song was on


No explanation needed, the lyrics tells it all.

Hamster

Hamster:

So I figured out a few good ways to make this lame-arse blog more interesting! Of course I'm not gonna spill all my secrets! But you'll see! :)

This blog is so boring

I have just noticed that this blog is insanley boring -_- And needs I dunno some more color or something (?) So I'll try my hardest to make it more interesting and btw my poetry sucks, I know but it's not about impressing other people it's about unleashing my emotions. I guess...

Know What To Do

You think you have an excuse for everything.
You think you know what do.

When the truth is,
Your just as scared and have no idea what to do.

You think you can control everthing,
not letting anything you go.

You consider yourself the boss of the house to dictate everyone else.
Perhaps you should consider givin up your poistion to let someone else have a go.
Then maybe perhaps are few more things can get going.

I love You

I just cannot believe you at times,
You infuriate me so much but somehow I still love you,
you consider yourself mean but that is not how I depict you,
your just a bit over the top and reserved and dramatic.

I have my life and you have yours.
I don't meddle in yours, do you see me doing that?
OH NO.

So please, show the same coutesy and respect to me please!

Dirty Dance

Cut the tags off your pants,
And do a dirty dance! :)

"DON'T PUSH ME!"

Dude, don't rush things or they'll never get done,
things will always happen in their own sweet time.

You gotta look at life like it is one big adventure,
Or your life will suck that's a total guarantee.

Think of life like it's one big stage,
And you are there dancing and prancing upon it,
like you owned the place,
then your life will be entirley wickedly awesome.

And you could live without the constant fear and regrets.

Criticize Me

Seriously, what the hell is your problem?
I can't do anything right according to you.

I don't understand,
what do you want from me?

Can't you just leave me alone and stop criticizing everything that I do?
Here I am playing by the rules,
And all I get is criticism right back from you.

I don't understand, what did I do to deserve you?

Leave Me Alone

Just fuck off and leave me alone,
Why don't you?

I will do everything in a good time.
So stop trying to rush me :(
Or things will NEVER get done.

Because.... you are really starting to piss.me.off.

My Own Choices

What is it to you whate I do with my life?
I am a person, I am human.
So maybe you should back up a moment, lady.

I have a brain, I can make my own choices.
I can think therefore I know what to do.

Stop trying to control every aspect of my life because I know what I have to do,
And it does not include you.

Never Knew

I never knew sitting here,
could be so boring,
trying to be mummy's perfect little girl.

But I'm not any of those things.
I'm not perfect and I'm certainley not a little girl anymore.
Afterall I'm just human, what to do.

Why does this have to be so boring?

Pulled in Different Directions

The world is spinning so fast,
its out of control and I just do not know what to do,
being pulled in different directions, is doing my head in.

Why can't people let me decided what I want to do?
Why is that so hard?

Words that Describe Last Night

Injustice.
Unfair.
Out of Order.
Completely Wack.
Over the Top.

But now we can put that all behind us as focus on another issue that your making a big deal out of :\ Which is making you entirley wack.

I didn't do Anything Wrong

I didn't get caught as I've done nothing wrong.
I was bored and having a sleepless night, so what.
Your overeacting as I couldn't fall asleep?
So I was playing Soliate, what is so wrong with that!

I didn't realize it was against your many rules,
so you could have told me before you banned me,
from doing what I needed to do.

Dear Mum

Don't you think your underestimating a bit,
going a bit overboard,
causing injustice and all that.

As I fear that I have done something,
which words could only be described in this song.

Is playing solitare late at night such a crime?
I think not, it was only my first time,
that it where, my friend,
you are going over the top.

It's Just Too Late, I'm Sorry.

Yet again you stand in my way,
staring me down,
do you enjoy standing in the way of all my dreams?

Do you take the enjoyment of destroying all my ambitions?
Don't you want to have a life, woman?
Seriously. What is your problem?

Please, explain it to me,
Lay it out on the table so it's loud and clear,
because I just do not understand you.

I'm not gonna let this stop me,
let you stop me,
because it is just too late for that,
I'm just getting started.

And then I'll show you what I mean.
And then you'll be sorry and apoligetic.
And I just stare at you in disbelief.

Now you sorry? Now you'll step away?
Well, it's way too late for that.
I'm sorry.

Tell Me Something I Don't Know - Selena Gomez

Everybody tells me,
That it's so hard to make it,
Yet so hard to break it,
And there's no way to fake it,
Everybody tells me that it's wrong what I'm feeling,
I shouldn't believe in,
The dreams that I'm dreaming,

I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind.
Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile.
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

Tell me, tell me something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me something I don't know.

Everybody tells me I don't know what I'm doing,
This life I'm pursuing,
The odds of me loosing.

Everybody tells me that it's one in a million,
More like one in a billion,
Or one in a zillion.

I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind.
Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.


Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,

[RAP]

Are you ready for it?
Yeah I'm ready for it.
Really ready for it?
Yeah I'm ready for it.
Let's get ready for this.

I'm on my way,
I know I'm gonna get there someday,
It doesn't help when you say,
It won't be easy.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know!

- Yeah! Tell me something I don't know. I can relate to these lyrics with my acting dream and stuff and people telling me that its not the right career choice for me, but afterall my mind is made up and no one is gonna tell me otherwise.

Won't Back Down

I won't back down,
I won't give up,
You can't stop me,
stop following me dreams.

Get a Life

Can't you get a life,
And stop using mine.

It's my life so let me do what I want,
You can't control it.
So get a life,
and stop trying to control every aspect of mine!

Mind Your Own Business

Why can't you just shut up,
And mind your business?

Is that just too hard to understand,
I know what I wanna do but your just standing in my way.

My Dream ♥

I won’t back down from my dream easily,
it’s my life tell me off if you want to,
but it won’t make any difference,
because I’m still going for it regardless if your with me or not.

Fock You

I explain what I want to do,
But you just dismiss it as nothing important,
I don’t know what to do,
All you do is just critize me.

And I just hate it so so much,
So I’ve just given up,
Screw what you say,
I’ve done trying,
I’ve tried to please you but nothing works.

So if you want to critize me,
go on do it,
But I can tell you that I won’t be around long,
if you do go through with it.

So like Lily Allen says, ‘It’s not me, it’s you’
And that is so true.

My Life.

It’s my life,
let me do what I want.

If you don’t like it,
say it to my face,
don’t try to hide it,
because it’s my life and I ain’t gonna live forever.

So try not to freak out when I say what’s going down,
because it’s my life,
it’s now or never,
So I gotta get started.

If you don’t like it,
then tough you’ll survive it.

Operation: Me

Completed:
- Finished cleaning room
- Making card for a loved one
- Started to write fanfiction: CHECK IT OUT! When a New Girl Comes to Town

Read my Fanfic or Die :P

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6657150/1/The_New_Girl_in_Town

Read it I dare you and I promise you that is good wayyyyyy better than any of my other old stories :)

Operation: Me

Compeleted:
- Start by wearing black nailpolish
- Knit a scarf until one ball of wool runs out
- Keep a diary

PICTURES ARE COMING SOON.

To Get Seriously Wasted: Twilight, New Moon & Eclipse Drinking Game :P

The Twilight Drinking Game
• Take a drink every time Bella touches her hair
• Take a drink every time Edward looks constipated
• Take a drink every time Bella looks constipated
• Take a drink every time Bella stammers
• Take a drink every time Edward says he is dangerous
• Take a drink every time Edward and Bella stare into each others eyes for more than 3 seconds
• Take a drink every time Charlie looks very, very uncomfortable
• Take a drink every time Bella whines about something
• Take a drink every time Bella trips - Take 2 if Edward saves her
• Take a drink whenever Alice has a vision
• Take a drink every time Jasper makes wide open crazy eyes
• Take a drink every time Mike refers to Bella as “Arizona”
• Take a drink every time Bella bites her lip
• Take a drink whenever Edward treats Bella like a child
• Chug your drink when a vampire sparkles - don't stop until the sparkling does/you finish your drink
• Take a drink every time any vampire hisses like a cat
• Take a drink every time Bella quotes a book/person
• Take a drink every time Bella says/acts like she can't live without Edward
• Take a drink every time Edward says something rude to Bella
• Take a drink every time you see Jacob shirtless
• Take a drink every time Jacob tries to get Bella's attention
• Take two big drinks every time someone says the word “monkey”


The New Moon Drinking Game
1. This is a pre-film rule: drink for every preview of a film about letters that stars Amanda Seyfried. Seriously. You’ll be drunk before the opening credits. (Though there really aren’t opening credits, are there?)
2. Drink whenever someone takes a picture. Bella, Alice, Angela, etc.
3. Ok, now this one could mean you get dragged out of the theater on a stretcher, but give it a shot (no pun intended): drink everytime there’s plaid on screen. This is for every separate piece of plaid. For instance, in the cafeteria, Mike is wearing plaid, but so are a few of the extras in the background. Drink for each. (If you really want to get crazy, drink for the plaid curtains in Bella’s house.)
4. Drink when Edward gets out of the Volvo at school and walks towards Bella looking like something out of a wet dream. (Seriously, no matter how many times I see the movie, I gasp audibly when I see him.)
5. Drink every time Emmett says something so goofy it’s hot. Which is every time he speaks.
6. Drink every time a line from Twilight is repeated. For instance, when Alice says, “it’s time” or when Bella tells Charlie to be careful and he says, ” always am.”
7. Drink every time a line that’s so random, dated or dumb that it rivals “spider monkey” is uttered. ie: When Jake calls Bella “loca” or when Bella asks Emmett not to “hate the truck.” Or when Jess says “homeboy could have been a psycho.” Or when Jake says “age is just a number, baby.” You get the idea.
8. Drink when you get dizzy from the spinning in the scene where Bella’s lying on the forest floor. (Cause you know you do. I actually have to look away. Alcohol should help that.)
9. Drink when you see Sam come to save Bella in wolf form…because he looks like an animatronic Snuffleupagus. Moments later, drink again when Sam, Harry Clearwater and Jake exchange a silent look that rivals those on an episode of The Hills.
10. Drink for Jessica’s amazing zombie rant. We heart Anna Kendrick.
11. In the scene where Bella falls off the motorcycle drink two times: once when Jake does his fancy maneuver to get off his own bike and then when he shamelessly removes his shirt. You knew we were gonna say that one, didn’t you?
12. Drink when Mike Newton says “gotta get that pwotein in thew” in his baby talk voice.
13. Drink for the Burger King product placement in the movie theater scene.
14. (This is a good one!) Drink every time Bella cock teases Jake and they almost kiss. Such a tease, Bells!
15. Drink whenever the wolf pack makes their weird greeting noise. “Oooohheeeeee!”
16. Drink every time someone other than Bella drives her truck.
17. Drink whenever someone speaks a language that’s not English, but no translation is offered. (ie: Jacob or the Volturi.)
18. Drink during the amazingly funny, awkward and creepy elevator scene in Italy. Genius!
19. Whether you love it or hate it, drink for Alice’s Breaking Dawn premonition. (We love it!)
20. Drink for every Cullen that votes yes.


The Eclipse Drinking Game
Take One Drink When:
• Bella ditches Edward for Jacob, or Jacob for Edward
• Jacob begins a scene shirtless
• Jorts appear on screen (bonus: yell “JORTS!”)
• Edward asks Bella to marry him, and she says no
• Charlie tries to give Bella the sex talk
• Any actor (*cough*kristenstewart*cough*) mumbles so much that you miss the very important dialogue, dammit!
• Victoria leaps across the river, crossing back and forth between the Cullens’ and the wolf packs’ lands
• The camera pauses on all the Cullens posed like action figures
• There’s a flashback! (oh yes, and there are a-plenty!)
• Jasper flashes his CRAZY EYES
• Riley looks menacingly over the newborns, or off in the distance, or at the camera in general
• The first kill during the vampire rumble– Jasper’s flying-leap head-punch!
• They try to make you care about Bree
Take One Shot:
• For the tent scene
• When Bella punches a werewolf in the face (bonus: yell “FACEPUNCH!”)
• For the ‘third wife’ reference
Chug:
• As always, whenever any vampire sparkles, until said sparkling is completed
Pour One Out:
Obviously this is optional, since theaters don’t appreciate your spillage, even when it’s for a good reason. Which this is.
• For the replacement of jorts with cargo pants
• For the hideousness of the engagement ring
• For the faux feminism of Bella’s intent to hyphenate her name

Chocolate

It's a quiet day,
the streets are deserted,
nobody is around,
but there is a girl eating chocolate.

She looks up then waves and grins,
but nobody takes any notice because she is just nothing.

But if you want to know the true story, she is just bloody fanstastic.

Goodbye Old Friend

When I look back on all the good times we shared,
I can’t figure out on what we missed out.

It’s as if your just dismissing all those times as nothing,
and throwing them away as if they meant nothing to you.

Well let me tell you, they meant something to me,
I can’t figure it out on what I missed out,
Why you chose to ignore me.

What on earth did I do?
Please tell me.

There are moments in your life that makes you understand,
who some people really are,
what they do, who they are and what makes them do what they do.

But anyway your just another regret like I care,
I’m just gonna go and wash my hair.

Say buh-bye now because I’ll never see ya again ;)

Various Facts: Loners - 14/01/11

Many loners are very talented people, but prefer being alone as they have lots to do and concentrate on.

Loners often spend vast amounts of time on projects that are close and personal to their hearts.

People usually get the wrong impressions from loners, they think that they are arrogant and stuck up when in fact most likey they don't have enough courage to talk to other people and that they are just shy when in fact they could be very nice people.

How do you identify a loner? Well, its not that hard. Such people often abstain from mingling with others. In a school, you can easily identify loners by their attitude.
They remain silent and reserved and often don't have many friends. Instead, you'll find such children sitting alone in class, unlike other children who are often seen chatting and enjoying company with their friends.

A loner is a person who avoids or does not actively seek human interaction or prefers to be alone. There are many reasons for solitude, intentional or otherwise, and "loner" implies no specific cause. Intentional reasons include spiritual and religious considerations or personal philosophies. Unintentional reasons involve being highly sensitive, having more extreme forms of shyness, or various mental disorders. The modern term "loner" is usually used with a negative connotation in the simplistic belief that human beings are social creatures and those that do not participate are deviant.

Shy or lacking self-esteem, some loners can socialise only with people they see constantly. This is in part because many are overly self-conscious and believe people are constantly sizing up their attributes. Insecure loners find it excruciating to be in the physical presence of others because they worry they will be judged negatively. Anxiety is a common feature of their social interactions. Self-hatred is sometimes the underlying motivation for why a person may isolate him- or herself. A sense of alienation from society can develop as a result—even though it is self-imposed.

Avoidant Personality Disorder
Avoidant personality disorder(or anxious personality disorder)is a personality disorder recognized in the DSM-IV TR handbook in a person over the age of eighteen years as characterized by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction.

People with AvPD often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, rejected, or disliked.

AvPD is usually first noticed in early adulthood, and is associated with perceived or actual rejection by parents or peers during childhood. Whether the feeling of rejection is due to the extreme interpersonal monitoring attributed to people with the disorder is still disputed.

Social Anxiety
Social anxiety is anxiety (emotional discomfort, fear, apprehension, or worry) about social situations, interactions with others, and being evaluated or scrutinized by other people. It can occur at different times of life, and for different reasons. Developmental social anxiety occurs early in childhood as a normal part of the development of social functioning, and is a stage that most children grow out of, but problem or chronic social anxiety may persist (perhaps unnoticed) until adolescence or may surface in adulthood. People vary in how often they experience social anxiety and in which kinds of situations. Overcoming social anxiety depends on the person and the situation. In some cases it can be relatively easy—just a matter of time passing for many individuals, and yet for some people social anxiety can become a very difficult, painful and even disabling problem that is chronic in nature. The reasons are unknown. Social anxiety can be related to shyness or anxiety disorders or other emotional or temperamental factors, but its exact nature is still the subject of research and theory and the causes may vary depending on the individual. Recovery from chronic social anxiety is possible in many cases, but usually only with some kind of therapy or sustained self-help or support group work.

A psychopathological (chronic and disabling) form of social anxiety is called social phobia or social anxiety disorder, and is a chronic problem that can result in a reduced quality of life. Overcoming social anxiety of this type can be very difficult without getting assistance from therapists, psychologists or support groups. Social anxiety can also be self-integrated and persistent for people who suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder, which can also make the social anxiety harder to overcome, especially if ignored.

Social Rejection
Social rejection occurs when an individual is deliberately excluded from a interpersonal relationship or social relation. The topic includes both interpersonal rejection (or peer rejection) and romantic rejection. A person can be rejected on an individual basis or by an entire group of people. Furthermore, rejection can be either active, by bullying, teasing, or ridiculing, or passive, by ignoring a person, or giving the "silent treatment." The experience of being rejected is subjective for the recipient, and it can be perceived when it is not actually present.

Although humans are social beings, some level of rejection is an inevitable part of life. Nevertheless, rejection can become a problem when it is prolonged or consistent, when the relationship is important, or when the individual is highly sensitive to rejection. Rejection by an entire group of people can have especially negative effects, particularly when it results in social isolation.

The experience of rejection can lead to a number of adverse psychological consequences such as loneliness, low self-esteem, aggression, and depression.[2] It can also lead to feelings of insecurity and a heightened sensitivity to future rejection.

Scorpio for Life

This is all so true :)

Myself

I just want a place where I can be myself,
with no pretending.

I feel like I am living a lie and I just need to get out.

It's just as simple as that.
With no sugar coating.

Dickheaded Dictator

You have no right to dictate me,
And I have no idea why.

Why do you think that you’re the boss to tell anyone what to do.
I just don’t understand what makes you think why.
Because you don’t know it all,
So stop trying to control me.

I’ll do whatever I want and stop trying to blame me.
Because its never ‘Mr. G’oody-Goody-Two Shoes’
Oh it can be!
Because he does everything right and blames it on the others.

So shut up, stop trying to tell me what to do,
Because I just don’t understand.

Stop trying to be a dictator of my life!

Change

Now is the time to change,
to change whatever,
it doesn't matter.

Dear Diary

It's amazing,
how minute your world can be completely gray and then the next minute
full of happiness and joy.

Just by one simple thing.

Me :)

Nothing is Right

God Damnit!
I can't do nothing right,
it never works out and I just don't know why.

I just don't get it,
why it can go right?

Fuck.

The Rain

12/1/11
12:16am
A/N: Such a great start to 2011! The Floods of January 2011 :)

The rain pours down,
it thunders down.

Flooding everything below,
when is it ever gonna stop?

I guess we'll never know.

-by ZKH

Straddie ♥

It hurts so much,
I want it bad,
Just to be completely rad.

To be awesome and looked upon and completely cool,
I would never have to worry about anything again,
And I could just be myself.

And nothing else would matter,
if I lived on Straddie in an old beat up caravan.

-by ZKH

Crazy

DRIVING ME INSANE
I'M GOING CRAZY
BUT I JUST DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT.
I HAVE TO GET OUT
BEFORE I GO CRAZY
ITS MADNESS AND, I KNOW I'LL HAVE TO LEAVE.

-by ZKH

Confused

I am confused, lonley and hurt
I don't know what to do
Only that my heart is being pulled in different directions

Why did it have to be so difficult?
Of all the different choices I have to make.
I don't understand it.

I know something has to be done,
but I just don't get it.

-by ZKH

Explode

You make me crazy,
I can't control it,
I have to get out.

I can understand it,
I just don't get it.

I feel like I'm gonna explode,
if I stay living here anymore.

Unrealistic Roadtrip

In the beginning there was a plan,
A plan of dreams,
A girl hoped that it could come true,
Even if it was pretty unreachable.

It would be fun and exciting.
Even if it was unrealistic.

But the girl loved a good challenge.
So she would complete it.

My Life

Hey mum dad look at me,
You didn’t believe that I could do it,
You had no faith in me.
But look at me now and look at where I am.
Because I have just proved you wrong.

Think back carefully and figure out where you went wrong.
When I broke all the rules and went my own way.
Doing the things that I wanna do even though you disapproved.

I tried it your way to make you proud, but it just didn’t feel right.
And I knew that I had to get out.
I tried to make you proud, but it just didn’t work out.

And now look at me and where I am.
Can you believe it? That I proved you wrong.
That I did make it.

You always thought I was living in dream land unrealistically.
You called me a dreamer, but I called myself a believer.
And you didn’t know that the unrealistic dream would come true.
One day far away.

-by ZKH

She's So Cool

I look at that girl and she's so cool,
I wish I could be like her.

The way she dresses, the way she styles her hair,
The way she talks and the way she waves her hand in the air.

She's got an awesome boyfriend who absoutely loves her.
She's got fab friends who will always be there.

She's so cool, I admire her.

I like the way she avoids the paparazzi in her own deranged way.

Why is she so cool? I guess I'll never know :)

-by ZKH

Independance

Why do you always tell me what to do?
Don’t you know that I hate it too?

I have a mind of my own ya know,
I can perfectly work things out for myself.

Please I just wanna gain a little bit of independence,
Because so far when you’re around I have none.

I feel like I’m useless, half the time.
Not knowing what to do.

You don’t have to baby me anymore,
I’m not your child.

Your child that you once had is all grown up,
And is telling you to get out of her face.
Otherwise she may just do something that you’ll both regret.

-by ZKH

Water for Elephants Trailer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6b2XhXkPpg

2:21 New Year

I'm just sitting here,
Chilling at 2am.

Thinking things over.
When am I gonna fall asleep?

I have no idea,
but I do know something,
This year of twenty-eleven will be a good one.

Insomniac

So many sleepless nightse,
I just do not know what to do.

Should I sleep or stay up?
Should I go to bed earlier or sleep none at all?

Am I being an insomniac? That's a scary thought.
Or a Vampire who lives in the bottom of hell.

Sleep never comes,
And when I wake up in the morning I am so tired.

I blame the chocolate.