Know What To Do

You think you have an excuse for everything.
You think you know what do.

When the truth is,
Your just as scared and have no idea what to do.

You think you can control everthing,
not letting anything you go.

You consider yourself the boss of the house to dictate everyone else.
Perhaps you should consider givin up your poistion to let someone else have a go.
Then maybe perhaps are few more things can get going.

I love You

I just cannot believe you at times,
You infuriate me so much but somehow I still love you,
you consider yourself mean but that is not how I depict you,
your just a bit over the top and reserved and dramatic.

I have my life and you have yours.
I don't meddle in yours, do you see me doing that?
OH NO.

So please, show the same coutesy and respect to me please!

Dirty Dance

Cut the tags off your pants,
And do a dirty dance! :)

"DON'T PUSH ME!"

Dude, don't rush things or they'll never get done,
things will always happen in their own sweet time.

You gotta look at life like it is one big adventure,
Or your life will suck that's a total guarantee.

Think of life like it's one big stage,
And you are there dancing and prancing upon it,
like you owned the place,
then your life will be entirley wickedly awesome.

And you could live without the constant fear and regrets.

Criticize Me

Seriously, what the hell is your problem?
I can't do anything right according to you.

I don't understand,
what do you want from me?

Can't you just leave me alone and stop criticizing everything that I do?
Here I am playing by the rules,
And all I get is criticism right back from you.

I don't understand, what did I do to deserve you?

Leave Me Alone

Just fuck off and leave me alone,
Why don't you?

I will do everything in a good time.
So stop trying to rush me :(
Or things will NEVER get done.

Because.... you are really starting to piss.me.off.

My Own Choices

What is it to you whate I do with my life?
I am a person, I am human.
So maybe you should back up a moment, lady.

I have a brain, I can make my own choices.
I can think therefore I know what to do.

Stop trying to control every aspect of my life because I know what I have to do,
And it does not include you.

Never Knew

I never knew sitting here,
could be so boring,
trying to be mummy's perfect little girl.

But I'm not any of those things.
I'm not perfect and I'm certainley not a little girl anymore.
Afterall I'm just human, what to do.

Why does this have to be so boring?

Pulled in Different Directions

The world is spinning so fast,
its out of control and I just do not know what to do,
being pulled in different directions, is doing my head in.

Why can't people let me decided what I want to do?
Why is that so hard?

Words that Describe Last Night

Injustice.
Unfair.
Out of Order.
Completely Wack.
Over the Top.

But now we can put that all behind us as focus on another issue that your making a big deal out of :\ Which is making you entirley wack.

I didn't do Anything Wrong

I didn't get caught as I've done nothing wrong.
I was bored and having a sleepless night, so what.
Your overeacting as I couldn't fall asleep?
So I was playing Soliate, what is so wrong with that!

I didn't realize it was against your many rules,
so you could have told me before you banned me,
from doing what I needed to do.

Dear Mum

Don't you think your underestimating a bit,
going a bit overboard,
causing injustice and all that.

As I fear that I have done something,
which words could only be described in this song.

Is playing solitare late at night such a crime?
I think not, it was only my first time,
that it where, my friend,
you are going over the top.

It's Just Too Late, I'm Sorry.

Yet again you stand in my way,
staring me down,
do you enjoy standing in the way of all my dreams?

Do you take the enjoyment of destroying all my ambitions?
Don't you want to have a life, woman?
Seriously. What is your problem?

Please, explain it to me,
Lay it out on the table so it's loud and clear,
because I just do not understand you.

I'm not gonna let this stop me,
let you stop me,
because it is just too late for that,
I'm just getting started.

And then I'll show you what I mean.
And then you'll be sorry and apoligetic.
And I just stare at you in disbelief.

Now you sorry? Now you'll step away?
Well, it's way too late for that.
I'm sorry.

Tell Me Something I Don't Know - Selena Gomez

Everybody tells me,
That it's so hard to make it,
Yet so hard to break it,
And there's no way to fake it,
Everybody tells me that it's wrong what I'm feeling,
I shouldn't believe in,
The dreams that I'm dreaming,

I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind.
Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile.
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

Tell me, tell me something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me something I don't know.

Everybody tells me I don't know what I'm doing,
This life I'm pursuing,
The odds of me loosing.

Everybody tells me that it's one in a million,
More like one in a billion,
Or one in a zillion.

I hear it everyday,
I hear it all the time,
I'm never gunna amount to much,
But they're never gunna change my mind.
Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.


Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,

[RAP]

Are you ready for it?
Yeah I'm ready for it.
Really ready for it?
Yeah I'm ready for it.
Let's get ready for this.

I'm on my way,
I know I'm gonna get there someday,
It doesn't help when you say,
It won't be easy.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know,
Something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know.

How many inches in a mile,
What it takes to make you smile,
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby.

Tell me, tell me, tell me,
something I don't know,
something I don't know,
something I don't know!

- Yeah! Tell me something I don't know. I can relate to these lyrics with my acting dream and stuff and people telling me that its not the right career choice for me, but afterall my mind is made up and no one is gonna tell me otherwise.

Won't Back Down

I won't back down,
I won't give up,
You can't stop me,
stop following me dreams.

Get a Life

Can't you get a life,
And stop using mine.

It's my life so let me do what I want,
You can't control it.
So get a life,
and stop trying to control every aspect of mine!

Mind Your Own Business

Why can't you just shut up,
And mind your business?

Is that just too hard to understand,
I know what I wanna do but your just standing in my way.

My Dream ♥

I won’t back down from my dream easily,
it’s my life tell me off if you want to,
but it won’t make any difference,
because I’m still going for it regardless if your with me or not.

Fock You

I explain what I want to do,
But you just dismiss it as nothing important,
I don’t know what to do,
All you do is just critize me.

And I just hate it so so much,
So I’ve just given up,
Screw what you say,
I’ve done trying,
I’ve tried to please you but nothing works.

So if you want to critize me,
go on do it,
But I can tell you that I won’t be around long,
if you do go through with it.

So like Lily Allen says, ‘It’s not me, it’s you’
And that is so true.

My Life.

It’s my life,
let me do what I want.

If you don’t like it,
say it to my face,
don’t try to hide it,
because it’s my life and I ain’t gonna live forever.

So try not to freak out when I say what’s going down,
because it’s my life,
it’s now or never,
So I gotta get started.

If you don’t like it,
then tough you’ll survive it.

Operation: Me

Completed:
- Finished cleaning room
- Making card for a loved one
- Started to write fanfiction: CHECK IT OUT! When a New Girl Comes to Town

Read my Fanfic or Die :P

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6657150/1/The_New_Girl_in_Town

Read it I dare you and I promise you that is good wayyyyyy better than any of my other old stories :)

Operation: Me

Compeleted:
- Start by wearing black nailpolish
- Knit a scarf until one ball of wool runs out
- Keep a diary

PICTURES ARE COMING SOON.

To Get Seriously Wasted: Twilight, New Moon & Eclipse Drinking Game :P

The Twilight Drinking Game
• Take a drink every time Bella touches her hair
• Take a drink every time Edward looks constipated
• Take a drink every time Bella looks constipated
• Take a drink every time Bella stammers
• Take a drink every time Edward says he is dangerous
• Take a drink every time Edward and Bella stare into each others eyes for more than 3 seconds
• Take a drink every time Charlie looks very, very uncomfortable
• Take a drink every time Bella whines about something
• Take a drink every time Bella trips - Take 2 if Edward saves her
• Take a drink whenever Alice has a vision
• Take a drink every time Jasper makes wide open crazy eyes
• Take a drink every time Mike refers to Bella as “Arizona”
• Take a drink every time Bella bites her lip
• Take a drink whenever Edward treats Bella like a child
• Chug your drink when a vampire sparkles - don't stop until the sparkling does/you finish your drink
• Take a drink every time any vampire hisses like a cat
• Take a drink every time Bella quotes a book/person
• Take a drink every time Bella says/acts like she can't live without Edward
• Take a drink every time Edward says something rude to Bella
• Take a drink every time you see Jacob shirtless
• Take a drink every time Jacob tries to get Bella's attention
• Take two big drinks every time someone says the word “monkey”


The New Moon Drinking Game
1. This is a pre-film rule: drink for every preview of a film about letters that stars Amanda Seyfried. Seriously. You’ll be drunk before the opening credits. (Though there really aren’t opening credits, are there?)
2. Drink whenever someone takes a picture. Bella, Alice, Angela, etc.
3. Ok, now this one could mean you get dragged out of the theater on a stretcher, but give it a shot (no pun intended): drink everytime there’s plaid on screen. This is for every separate piece of plaid. For instance, in the cafeteria, Mike is wearing plaid, but so are a few of the extras in the background. Drink for each. (If you really want to get crazy, drink for the plaid curtains in Bella’s house.)
4. Drink when Edward gets out of the Volvo at school and walks towards Bella looking like something out of a wet dream. (Seriously, no matter how many times I see the movie, I gasp audibly when I see him.)
5. Drink every time Emmett says something so goofy it’s hot. Which is every time he speaks.
6. Drink every time a line from Twilight is repeated. For instance, when Alice says, “it’s time” or when Bella tells Charlie to be careful and he says, ” always am.”
7. Drink every time a line that’s so random, dated or dumb that it rivals “spider monkey” is uttered. ie: When Jake calls Bella “loca” or when Bella asks Emmett not to “hate the truck.” Or when Jess says “homeboy could have been a psycho.” Or when Jake says “age is just a number, baby.” You get the idea.
8. Drink when you get dizzy from the spinning in the scene where Bella’s lying on the forest floor. (Cause you know you do. I actually have to look away. Alcohol should help that.)
9. Drink when you see Sam come to save Bella in wolf form…because he looks like an animatronic Snuffleupagus. Moments later, drink again when Sam, Harry Clearwater and Jake exchange a silent look that rivals those on an episode of The Hills.
10. Drink for Jessica’s amazing zombie rant. We heart Anna Kendrick.
11. In the scene where Bella falls off the motorcycle drink two times: once when Jake does his fancy maneuver to get off his own bike and then when he shamelessly removes his shirt. You knew we were gonna say that one, didn’t you?
12. Drink when Mike Newton says “gotta get that pwotein in thew” in his baby talk voice.
13. Drink for the Burger King product placement in the movie theater scene.
14. (This is a good one!) Drink every time Bella cock teases Jake and they almost kiss. Such a tease, Bells!
15. Drink whenever the wolf pack makes their weird greeting noise. “Oooohheeeeee!”
16. Drink every time someone other than Bella drives her truck.
17. Drink whenever someone speaks a language that’s not English, but no translation is offered. (ie: Jacob or the Volturi.)
18. Drink during the amazingly funny, awkward and creepy elevator scene in Italy. Genius!
19. Whether you love it or hate it, drink for Alice’s Breaking Dawn premonition. (We love it!)
20. Drink for every Cullen that votes yes.


The Eclipse Drinking Game
Take One Drink When:
• Bella ditches Edward for Jacob, or Jacob for Edward
• Jacob begins a scene shirtless
• Jorts appear on screen (bonus: yell “JORTS!”)
• Edward asks Bella to marry him, and she says no
• Charlie tries to give Bella the sex talk
• Any actor (*cough*kristenstewart*cough*) mumbles so much that you miss the very important dialogue, dammit!
• Victoria leaps across the river, crossing back and forth between the Cullens’ and the wolf packs’ lands
• The camera pauses on all the Cullens posed like action figures
• There’s a flashback! (oh yes, and there are a-plenty!)
• Jasper flashes his CRAZY EYES
• Riley looks menacingly over the newborns, or off in the distance, or at the camera in general
• The first kill during the vampire rumble– Jasper’s flying-leap head-punch!
• They try to make you care about Bree
Take One Shot:
• For the tent scene
• When Bella punches a werewolf in the face (bonus: yell “FACEPUNCH!”)
• For the ‘third wife’ reference
Chug:
• As always, whenever any vampire sparkles, until said sparkling is completed
Pour One Out:
Obviously this is optional, since theaters don’t appreciate your spillage, even when it’s for a good reason. Which this is.
• For the replacement of jorts with cargo pants
• For the hideousness of the engagement ring
• For the faux feminism of Bella’s intent to hyphenate her name

Chocolate

It's a quiet day,
the streets are deserted,
nobody is around,
but there is a girl eating chocolate.

She looks up then waves and grins,
but nobody takes any notice because she is just nothing.

But if you want to know the true story, she is just bloody fanstastic.

Goodbye Old Friend

When I look back on all the good times we shared,
I can’t figure out on what we missed out.

It’s as if your just dismissing all those times as nothing,
and throwing them away as if they meant nothing to you.

Well let me tell you, they meant something to me,
I can’t figure it out on what I missed out,
Why you chose to ignore me.

What on earth did I do?
Please tell me.

There are moments in your life that makes you understand,
who some people really are,
what they do, who they are and what makes them do what they do.

But anyway your just another regret like I care,
I’m just gonna go and wash my hair.

Say buh-bye now because I’ll never see ya again ;)

Various Facts: Loners - 14/01/11

Many loners are very talented people, but prefer being alone as they have lots to do and concentrate on.

Loners often spend vast amounts of time on projects that are close and personal to their hearts.

People usually get the wrong impressions from loners, they think that they are arrogant and stuck up when in fact most likey they don't have enough courage to talk to other people and that they are just shy when in fact they could be very nice people.

How do you identify a loner? Well, its not that hard. Such people often abstain from mingling with others. In a school, you can easily identify loners by their attitude.
They remain silent and reserved and often don't have many friends. Instead, you'll find such children sitting alone in class, unlike other children who are often seen chatting and enjoying company with their friends.

A loner is a person who avoids or does not actively seek human interaction or prefers to be alone. There are many reasons for solitude, intentional or otherwise, and "loner" implies no specific cause. Intentional reasons include spiritual and religious considerations or personal philosophies. Unintentional reasons involve being highly sensitive, having more extreme forms of shyness, or various mental disorders. The modern term "loner" is usually used with a negative connotation in the simplistic belief that human beings are social creatures and those that do not participate are deviant.

Shy or lacking self-esteem, some loners can socialise only with people they see constantly. This is in part because many are overly self-conscious and believe people are constantly sizing up their attributes. Insecure loners find it excruciating to be in the physical presence of others because they worry they will be judged negatively. Anxiety is a common feature of their social interactions. Self-hatred is sometimes the underlying motivation for why a person may isolate him- or herself. A sense of alienation from society can develop as a result—even though it is self-imposed.

Avoidant Personality Disorder
Avoidant personality disorder(or anxious personality disorder)is a personality disorder recognized in the DSM-IV TR handbook in a person over the age of eighteen years as characterized by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction.

People with AvPD often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, rejected, or disliked.

AvPD is usually first noticed in early adulthood, and is associated with perceived or actual rejection by parents or peers during childhood. Whether the feeling of rejection is due to the extreme interpersonal monitoring attributed to people with the disorder is still disputed.

Social Anxiety
Social anxiety is anxiety (emotional discomfort, fear, apprehension, or worry) about social situations, interactions with others, and being evaluated or scrutinized by other people. It can occur at different times of life, and for different reasons. Developmental social anxiety occurs early in childhood as a normal part of the development of social functioning, and is a stage that most children grow out of, but problem or chronic social anxiety may persist (perhaps unnoticed) until adolescence or may surface in adulthood. People vary in how often they experience social anxiety and in which kinds of situations. Overcoming social anxiety depends on the person and the situation. In some cases it can be relatively easy—just a matter of time passing for many individuals, and yet for some people social anxiety can become a very difficult, painful and even disabling problem that is chronic in nature. The reasons are unknown. Social anxiety can be related to shyness or anxiety disorders or other emotional or temperamental factors, but its exact nature is still the subject of research and theory and the causes may vary depending on the individual. Recovery from chronic social anxiety is possible in many cases, but usually only with some kind of therapy or sustained self-help or support group work.

A psychopathological (chronic and disabling) form of social anxiety is called social phobia or social anxiety disorder, and is a chronic problem that can result in a reduced quality of life. Overcoming social anxiety of this type can be very difficult without getting assistance from therapists, psychologists or support groups. Social anxiety can also be self-integrated and persistent for people who suffer from obsessive-compulsive disorder, which can also make the social anxiety harder to overcome, especially if ignored.

Social Rejection
Social rejection occurs when an individual is deliberately excluded from a interpersonal relationship or social relation. The topic includes both interpersonal rejection (or peer rejection) and romantic rejection. A person can be rejected on an individual basis or by an entire group of people. Furthermore, rejection can be either active, by bullying, teasing, or ridiculing, or passive, by ignoring a person, or giving the "silent treatment." The experience of being rejected is subjective for the recipient, and it can be perceived when it is not actually present.

Although humans are social beings, some level of rejection is an inevitable part of life. Nevertheless, rejection can become a problem when it is prolonged or consistent, when the relationship is important, or when the individual is highly sensitive to rejection. Rejection by an entire group of people can have especially negative effects, particularly when it results in social isolation.

The experience of rejection can lead to a number of adverse psychological consequences such as loneliness, low self-esteem, aggression, and depression.[2] It can also lead to feelings of insecurity and a heightened sensitivity to future rejection.

Scorpio for Life

This is all so true :)

Myself

I just want a place where I can be myself,
with no pretending.

I feel like I am living a lie and I just need to get out.

It's just as simple as that.
With no sugar coating.

Dickheaded Dictator

You have no right to dictate me,
And I have no idea why.

Why do you think that you’re the boss to tell anyone what to do.
I just don’t understand what makes you think why.
Because you don’t know it all,
So stop trying to control me.

I’ll do whatever I want and stop trying to blame me.
Because its never ‘Mr. G’oody-Goody-Two Shoes’
Oh it can be!
Because he does everything right and blames it on the others.

So shut up, stop trying to tell me what to do,
Because I just don’t understand.

Stop trying to be a dictator of my life!

Change

Now is the time to change,
to change whatever,
it doesn't matter.

Dear Diary

It's amazing,
how minute your world can be completely gray and then the next minute
full of happiness and joy.

Just by one simple thing.

Me :)

Nothing is Right

God Damnit!
I can't do nothing right,
it never works out and I just don't know why.

I just don't get it,
why it can go right?

Fuck.

The Rain

12/1/11
12:16am
A/N: Such a great start to 2011! The Floods of January 2011 :)

The rain pours down,
it thunders down.

Flooding everything below,
when is it ever gonna stop?

I guess we'll never know.

-by ZKH

Straddie ♥

It hurts so much,
I want it bad,
Just to be completely rad.

To be awesome and looked upon and completely cool,
I would never have to worry about anything again,
And I could just be myself.

And nothing else would matter,
if I lived on Straddie in an old beat up caravan.

-by ZKH

Crazy

DRIVING ME INSANE
I'M GOING CRAZY
BUT I JUST DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT.
I HAVE TO GET OUT
BEFORE I GO CRAZY
ITS MADNESS AND, I KNOW I'LL HAVE TO LEAVE.

-by ZKH

Confused

I am confused, lonley and hurt
I don't know what to do
Only that my heart is being pulled in different directions

Why did it have to be so difficult?
Of all the different choices I have to make.
I don't understand it.

I know something has to be done,
but I just don't get it.

-by ZKH

Explode

You make me crazy,
I can't control it,
I have to get out.

I can understand it,
I just don't get it.

I feel like I'm gonna explode,
if I stay living here anymore.

Unrealistic Roadtrip

In the beginning there was a plan,
A plan of dreams,
A girl hoped that it could come true,
Even if it was pretty unreachable.

It would be fun and exciting.
Even if it was unrealistic.

But the girl loved a good challenge.
So she would complete it.

My Life

Hey mum dad look at me,
You didn’t believe that I could do it,
You had no faith in me.
But look at me now and look at where I am.
Because I have just proved you wrong.

Think back carefully and figure out where you went wrong.
When I broke all the rules and went my own way.
Doing the things that I wanna do even though you disapproved.

I tried it your way to make you proud, but it just didn’t feel right.
And I knew that I had to get out.
I tried to make you proud, but it just didn’t work out.

And now look at me and where I am.
Can you believe it? That I proved you wrong.
That I did make it.

You always thought I was living in dream land unrealistically.
You called me a dreamer, but I called myself a believer.
And you didn’t know that the unrealistic dream would come true.
One day far away.

-by ZKH

She's So Cool

I look at that girl and she's so cool,
I wish I could be like her.

The way she dresses, the way she styles her hair,
The way she talks and the way she waves her hand in the air.

She's got an awesome boyfriend who absoutely loves her.
She's got fab friends who will always be there.

She's so cool, I admire her.

I like the way she avoids the paparazzi in her own deranged way.

Why is she so cool? I guess I'll never know :)

-by ZKH

Independance

Why do you always tell me what to do?
Don’t you know that I hate it too?

I have a mind of my own ya know,
I can perfectly work things out for myself.

Please I just wanna gain a little bit of independence,
Because so far when you’re around I have none.

I feel like I’m useless, half the time.
Not knowing what to do.

You don’t have to baby me anymore,
I’m not your child.

Your child that you once had is all grown up,
And is telling you to get out of her face.
Otherwise she may just do something that you’ll both regret.

-by ZKH

Water for Elephants Trailer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_6b2XhXkPpg

2:21 New Year

I'm just sitting here,
Chilling at 2am.

Thinking things over.
When am I gonna fall asleep?

I have no idea,
but I do know something,
This year of twenty-eleven will be a good one.

Insomniac

So many sleepless nightse,
I just do not know what to do.

Should I sleep or stay up?
Should I go to bed earlier or sleep none at all?

Am I being an insomniac? That's a scary thought.
Or a Vampire who lives in the bottom of hell.

Sleep never comes,
And when I wake up in the morning I am so tired.

I blame the chocolate.